I don't think he knows I'm trans. I certainly don't talk to him about it because he's pretty anti-LGBT. But as some of my friends say it's easy to see this "halo of masculinity" around me. The more progressive people kinda figure out themselves. I dress and cut my hair the way I want because I have always stood up for the right to do it. Because I might accept and handle being in the closet with some people amd never mention the word trans, but I could never handle having a feminine appearance (clothes, hair, etc.). I've been like this ever since I was a child. Still, the fact my parents have always let me dress like I wanted to doesn't mean they like it or accept it. Deep inside, they don't. My mother makes subtle comments, my dad usually minds his own business but then I hear his stupid comments.
Carly, I had a psychologist say I show autistic traits. I now know about autism spectrum disorders and totally find that it fits me. Every single thing. I am now seeing another therapist and I'll see if she says the same thing. I think I have autism, the high functioning or Aspergers kind. I will go in depth and tell my therapist a lot about me, so maybe she will find out. My mother shows signs like being emotionally detached from people most of the time and other things and seems similar to me sometimes but she's still different. She has no problems doing what I find really hard to do like calling therapist for appt, answering the phone, talking to random strangers if they talk to her and other things.
And my brother sounds weird too sometimes, but not as much as I do, but he does sound more similar to me how he needs time to isolate himself, avoids phone calls, avoids people.....but he still has normal social skills. I don't. I feel like my social skills are a disaster even though I learned to do things. I still don't have a social life and can't. When I tried to, in hs (when I had more mental issues) it was a disaster. Stormy friendships, a big mess. Me and the social world do not get along well. And then there's other aspie signs like sensory issues/sensory overload, obsessive unusual interests, wanting to talk non-stop about my interests.....
It's just that when you can still function diagnosis might be hard. But sometimes I feel like I can't really function in social situations. Me being trans does not help with the anxiety and stress and hating misgendering and all....but even when I am with friends I feel uncomfortable with I still act weird.
My father shows zero signs of Asperger's, so no, I'd never say he has it. He might not realize what he says is inappropriate but no, it's not Asperger's.
