Hiya!!
I just wanted to share a quick update on my life. I've been away from the forums for quite a bit and just getting on with uni and stuff, but of course I've still had all these feelings of wanting to be a woman
I haven't really acted much on them other than dressing up every now and again, but that all changed last night.
I'm currently at my girlfriend's flat and we were in bed together. My dysphoria had been pretty bad that day and I knew that I needed to tell her soon but I was too scared! I decided instead to tell her that I'm bi (which is true) and if she reacted poorly then I'd probably avoid telling her about being trans. She reacted really well and we had a chat about how long I've known and what sort of boys I like. There was a moment in the conversation where I said that I like feminine guys and if I had been allowed to be one when I was growing up I probably would have been. When I told her this she said she felt sad that I haven't been able to discover who I am properly and she gave me a big hug.
This was when I decided it was time to tell her the absolute truth.
I told her I had something else to tell her but I was too scared to. She asked me what it was and I was sort of dodging it, hoping she would be able to guess it and say it for me (I was saying things like "have you ever wondered what it would be like to be guy? Because I wonder what it would be like to be a girl... like everyday"). Still hugging me, she said she didn't know what I was on about (I later found out she did but was trying to get me to say it myself) so I told her that there's a chance I might be transgender.
She hugged me and kissed me and told me "before we were a couple we were friends, so I always just want the best for you and I want to help you figure out who you are!" I'm so happy with how it went!! We sat in bed for hours just talking about how long I'd felt this way and how often and what I might possibly want to do about it in the future. She said that from everything I told her it sounds to her like I'm more than a crossdresser and might want to transition fully in to a woman and hearing that made me happy and excited!!
That night she did my makeup and shaved my legs. She keeps asking to see photos of me but I'm still a bit scared of doing that, soon I will though!!
I'm just so happy that I'm finally out to someone and even more happy that I came out to my amazing and accepting girlfriend!!
xxx
