I guess it's all those little things that keep us going through life. Rose, you mentioned your figure and nails- I have those too, plus some boobs, wasn't really hairy guy, have longer eyelashes...
Some of those things now change that I'm getting older, especially I'm getting hair everywhere (partially my bad, because I used to take some pills for hair regrowth) and also hair falling out where it should be. There is one thing that makes me happy when I look back though. When I was little, I had scolliosis- my back was kind of twisted- not straight but 25 degrees to the left. So the doctor prescribed some exercise and a corsette (not sure how to spell it). Basically, it was a plastic thingy around my body that I had to wear during the day and the night, making pressure on my spine. It made my belly area smaller, my hips wider and for as long as I can remember I had boobs. Had a lot of fun with people pointing that out all the time...
Anyway, I feel like I have to use all this to my advantage in my transition.
Rose, it's a brilliant idea to buy used stuff! I will do that and probably torrent some software, I know how to work around computers
I learnt about head voice and chest voice just a week ago. Falsetto is a great thing, put it just sounds fabricated. You need a lot of practice to tame it, like that famous guy from youtube did- what's his name.. Nick Pitera- search him on youtube. He's probably one of a few who can control it very well.
I remember when I couldn't hit high notes in Robbie Williams' Angels and now it's not a problem anymore. I guess there is a definite point for my range, but hopefully I will be able to go at least a little bit higher.
And the last remark- I've lived in Belgium for 6 months, in the UK for 1 year, in Czech Rep. for 2 years and now, in month, I'm moving back to UK, North Wales to be more precise. You've been to places where I was too! Makes me happy and I don't know why
Anyway, once I'm away, I will start my transition!
I promise, this is the last thing... I find that I can sing some notes in high pitch and sometime sound feminine completely. But I'm far from perfect. Maybe it's because I tried singing first and then speaking in feminine voice. Now, when I try speaking like a proper girl, I can only maintain it for about 10 minutes. After that, my neck hurts and I can feel every muscle in it crying for help. But it's better compared to when I started- I was able to have feminine voice for about 10 seconds. Now I'm looking for an hour and then the whole day. If I manage to do that I'm saved
But I think I will have to lose my male voice first. I tried to have both, but it's near to impossible.
I think that's it.
