I would love to be myself but Ive stayed quiet and uncomfortable. Why? Well like tonight I have to listen to a bunch of anti-transgender stuff. I take it personal ofcourse. I feel like it's better if I just stay silent. It's only a body and while I dont like it, I can put up with it till I die and go to heaven. I can deal with it. Well the truth is it's hard to deal with and it's not just a body Im uncomfortable with. It's everything than if I show who I am, Ill be sorry.
It's never my family who I was afraid of, it was the outside world. Soo many that think they can take the girl out of me for example and make me want to be a guy. It gets so old. I than feel like Im just a crazy person who is truly stupid or something. It just makes it all worse. I wish things were right but they are not. I wish I had been born a girl just like any other girl but nope.
Soo many who wouldnt understand me yet would try to act like they know it all when they never had to deal with this. Just sucks!!
