Just thought I'd sort of post an update here. Life has been busy with school and such. While I don't post here often, I do check in regularly to see all of your amazing stories, advice to each other, and OF COURSE beautiful smiling faces
I'm going to post maybe more photos than I normally might, because this is officially 6 months on both E and Spiro *happy dance*. I've noticed a fair amount of changes, too many to list here, but am over the moon to finally begin to see what I've longed to see in myself since as long as I can remember (I'm 28 fwiw).
Here is one from a few months before starting hormones:
This is when I first got *busted* by a friend, it was really freaking awesome for someone who was so close to me to notice not only that something was changing, but WHAT was changing. I think this was July, so about 4 months on hormones. Note the smoother skin, maybe a little difference in facial features? Idk.
It was in Europe a month ago for vacation that I first started confusing people a bit. I got mam'ed once and called 'lady' on another occasion. I didn't, and don't, see it personally, but it happened and I'll take what I can get :-p This photo was from Cassis (outside of Marseilles) and the first time I realized I may need to be more aware about thin shirts, wind, etc when in boy mode *ittybittytittydance*
Starting to really settle into things mid-August to now. Mom and dad know, best friends know, in laws know, starting to present more regularly around home and the neighborhood, etc. Finally got a haircut that works for me and that is easy enough for my meager hairstyling skills Even confused the gentleman taking tickets at the movie theatre a few weeks back while out with my wife – "ladies, can I see your tickets?" (followed by awkward moment when he realized it). No make up btw. Just skinny jeans and a vneck (we'll call this style emo).
Also over the past month or so, I have come to the conclusion that I will need a push out the door to blossom all the way and feel comfortable enough to move to full time... so have scheduled FFS (the works, jaw, forehead, nose,). Frankly I'm tired of living this weird half-life and feeling like so many things are on hold. I know it is mostly my own baggage and self-esteem issues but... I'm pretty excited anyways! It is later this year For now, it is getting easier to catch a 'magical' photo angle:
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One more thing, I am extremely happy at the slower pace I've moved with transitioning. To be honest I think it was the difference between staying married to my wife, and getting divorced. Yesterday, at 6 months, was the FIRST, yes you read that right, time I have ever been in public with my wife as Jordin and first time ever using my 'voice' in front of her(if you can call it that). We went out with another couple (one of them is on here *hugs*). On the car ride home, my wife told me how much it strengthened her relationship with me, and how all of her big fears were debunked: I am not an insanely different person, I do not sound like mini-mouse, people are generally accepting in this area, it is not weird or awkward
Sorry for the long post and vomit. Let's just chalk this up to a big milestone, and not having posted in awhile
