Ash here!

[Motoko07]

Hello, everyone. I've chosen to be called Ash since it is far more ambiguous than my given name.
I recently have started researching what everyone in my family has thought is wrong with me. I feel disgusting in my own skin, yet sometimes I'm comfortable as female.
Most of the time I'd rather be male, but sometimes I'm fine as I am. It's the weirdest thing ever, as I've been told. My mother writes me off as being lesbian because of this, but I am not attracted to females. Also, I hate being called "miss" or even being referred to as female. I'm not sure how confusing I'm coming off as with this..
I found this website during my search for clarity, which this was inspired through my agender friend and my FTM transgender friend. They believe I may be genderfluid, and I think this may be true. I hope I can find what I am looking for here.

[Dena]

Welcome to Susan's Place. From what you describe, you may very well be gender fluid and unfortunately, there isn't that much information around about it. I have accumulated some information that may help you. The first link is our WIKI where you can review your knowledge of the transgender family. The second is "the transition channel" which covers ->-bleeped-<- and transsexualism. The last 3 links are non binary and explore to some degree fluid/bigender.

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,202966.0.html

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,201219.0.html

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,196073.0.html

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[V M]

Hi Ash 

Welcome to Susan's    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M