Aww, you guys! I am so overwhelmed by the feedback! When I first read these, I was like, "What a bunch of great, kick a$$ ladies!" Then I kinda got watery eyed...might have been the mascara, (haha).
I had such a great day at work, I was smiling and singing to myself. (love tlc and beyonce
) I should say, I work at UPS, and I can drive in 6 months, which is great to be getting there so soon. In my area, it takes pre-loaders about four years to get into part-time or full-time driving. I took my first road test like a month ago, and I did fail...for not using signals, but the point was to see if I was being safe, and I was overall. That's why they only disqualified me for half a year. Which is cool. I have hrt on the way and the holidays to keep me busy till then.
The best part is I no longer have to get my hair cut short, because all my bosses know I am a transgendered person and the male dress code rules no longer apply to me, and the bathroom situation was never really an issue either. Girls all know my name over there and I am pretty sure that I am the only "guy" who can go in there. But, I don't always use the women's bathroom because if the wrong person from UPS's corporate ladder were to see me, they might get upset, and I worry.
Harley, I LOVE Cloak and Dagger. Before the pics seemingly disappeared I got a good look at that tat. (Dagger is nekkid n sexy lol. Badass.) I can also relate to that because I used to have a serious pain pill addiction. For about two-three years of my life, I popped pain pills like no one's business. I was severely depressed about everything, like life in general, and I even did heroin among many other drugs. I spent another three years getting clean and I am clean to this day. Not even a backwards thought at getting back on that train. I used to smoke, honey, I've done it all lol. Anyway, X-Men is my favorite Marvel series. I think there is a comic con coming up and I have no idea who to be. Maybe Daryl from The Walking Dead? Your Wonder Woman was SPOT ON, by the way.
Jalynn - No my GOD. You think I am
that pretty? If I could pull of what she's got, I'll die happy. As for the highlights in my hair, let me tell you a short story, girlfriend. I was like 14 maybe? A young heart breaker who went by the name of Abby, was living with mom, big brother, and me. I was looking to get highlights in my hair, like streaks, so I had a cool cali/care free style-kind-of-thing going on. Well, she offered happily and I was glad to let her...She had NO skills or experience at all. About 6 hours later the whole top part of my hair was blonde and the bottom my usual dark brown. It looked so weird. I accepted it of course, but I was pretty upset. I thought it looked a little silly, and kids at school were like, "You are trying too hard." Which I wasn't trying to impress anyone, really, I just wanted to dye my hair cause it sounded fun. Abby later got into it with my mom and moved out one day when we were all out at school/work. She left with her boyfriend, Sam and wrote one nasty note to mom...
I Am Jess - you really are something lovely and sweet, Ms. Jess.
I do declare! WOOF! (Haha. I kid, I kid. I can't believe you have not had work done. WOW.) Yah, I know some people in my city, who are worried about passing SO much and I understand that, but I don't want to be a woman to pass necessarily. I have to do this cause I am so messed the hell up inside, and think often about how I feel like I should be a girl. I know I am. Look at any of my old pictures in storage and I am SUCH a diva lol. It really all comes down to everyone's personal reason for wanting to change. If you are doing it for superficial reasons, then you might not ever be happy with the results and could cause you a lifetime of trouble and misery. Yes, there is more to being a woman than looks. Honey, it is the inside that wins a real man's heart.
KristinaM - I have no doubt, that with time, and constant moves in the right direction, you will get there. Your natural hair color rocks, your features are soft! Your profile pic already suggests there is a woman on the inside crying out for love and a life of her own. I say let her out, Krissy.
Keyframe - Your style is like part gothic meets the oriental, and I think it clashes together well. Not many people can take two styles and mash em up and make them work. You are magic, Key!
P.S. if that's your natural hair, being as long and red as it is, is totally making me envious. Ohmygosh, such a good color!
Karlie Ann - Flat out 10/10. Pass. BAM!
Amanda_Combs - Aww, Amanda! Everyone deserves to know how beautiful and unique they are. We is all snowflakes and stuffs. Post more pics, and get out there and show the world who you are. Some people are always going to be skeptical or rude, but I think they do that to people who have killer confidence, and that makes them really mad. I like showing people that I don't break easy, even when things hit a little hard. I brush it off and move on. When things linger however, having a friend really helps to vent to. Sadly, I have no one in that regard, to go shopping with, or have some honest girl-girl talks about dates and guys, but I am career driven at the moment, so that's really just a lack of trying on my part, lol. I'd love to see more of you though, and you can always post here, where its safe and comfortable. I know I'll drop in from time to time.
ChristineRachel - Honey, I repressed for like 6 years longer than I should have, when I realized the signs, and all it did was make me a shell of myself and made me really sad. I work in an environment similar to the one you described, (United Parcel Service, what can brown do for you, blah blah lol) and I look rough too, but few girls can really look cleaned up after a hard day. It makes getting home, taking a shower, slipping on some pjs, and drowning in old TV shows so much more worth it. Coming out to coworkers and your boss can be very intimidating because people can react poorly to news that is big. I really think you should tell your boss, or maybe try to get a job where they accept people like us, even if its out of fear of discriminating a large group of wonderful people. Why am I pushing this? Because I know you are beautiful and I think it makes you feel very happy to see yourself dolled up and I want you to be happy expressing this side of you. It would be a shame if you let it all go. Honestly, if you told me you couldn't let yourself out, that breaks my heart. BE honest. BE you. Beauty deserves her castle with her prince, you know?
josie76 - So do you think hormones will affect my body like I am a 20 year old? I know I'm 26, but I wonder being a late bloomer, if it can affect my body like a 20 year old. I have gone through puberty, unfortunately, so the best time for me to change, I fear is gone baby, gone. I know hormones will still work on me, but I would like the most out of it. Being more woman is the goal here. Also, I swear that is your real hair, lol! It wouldn't be so hard to get your natural hair to that level though. Really, you could rock so many styles, there is no limit, so why would I suggest you put a lid on this thing, anyway?
Thanks again for all of the feed back you guys! It really made my day, and will stick with me for a while. Speaking of sticking around, I'd be glad to comment on anyone else here who hasn't posted yet. I don't have a lot of time right now, but I will later and pretty much twice a day, I check up here so...DON'T BE SHY.
Talk to some men today, baby! Get dressed up and do how you do! Go flirt your hearts out. (I've totally been looking for the right guy myself, but every guy I talk to...well...its not hard to see they just want sex. I am not a sex doll. I am a love machine. I would rather get cuddled than be pummeled, lmao!) Bye, girls! TTYL
