Hello everyone, I am Debra I live in Nottingham and I am a transsexual. I have always felt that I was female but like so many tried to suppress my inner feelings, however over the past few years it has been more difficult to go back to presenting as a man after letting Debra out. I have now decided that it was time I did something about my feelings to be the woman I should have been and have now taken the first steps on this long journey.
I have asked to be referred to my local GIC with the ultimate aim of undergoing GRS and living the rest of my life as Debra. I am lucky in that I have never been married so will not have to go through the break up of a relationship that so many of us have to.
Over the past couple of years I have spent more time as a Debra only being in male mode when going to work or seeing family and friends, all the other time I have been living as a woman. Since making the decision to seek help I seem to have become a lot calmer and I have a inner peace.
The way I try to explain my feelings is like I am trapped inside a giant balloon and constantly pushing to find the way out, when I dress it is like I have found that way out, but something was always holding me back and when it was time to put Debra away it was like I was dragged back into the balloon and had to start all over again to find the way out again. However since making the decision to transition it feels like I am slowly inching my way out.
I know it is going to be a long and sometimes difficult journey and may well result in break ups with family and friends but I know that it is the right thing to do for my wellbeing
