Another hard couple of days.
Last night and this morning, when I wasn't paying attention, a kind of conversation was playing itself out in my head, where I was saying:
"I don't even have a word for how terrified I feel."
I'm feeling a barely suppressed terror, the kind the gets into your guts.
To shamelessly rip a piece of one of Cindy's recent posts completely out of context:
Quote from: Cindy on July 11, 2016, 04:13:52 AM
There are some things in life that are truely scary. There are times when we look from under the bedcovers and hope that the bogey creature doesn't see us. There are times we feel like giving up from the terror of taking another step.
That's how I'm feeling.
It was all I could do to get myself to work. I don't know how I'll get through the day. Autopilot, I suppose. Fortunately, the autopilot in the Iron Man suit still works, sort of.
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(Disclaimer: Cindy meant something quite different, as you'll see if you read her post, but the image was simply too good not to misappropriate for my own use.)