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Started by Anne Blake, August 09, 2016, 04:24:32 PM

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Anne Blake

August 09, 2016, 04:24:32 PM
Hello All, first off I want to thank all of you on Susan's for putting up with my emotional rantings over the past couple of weeks, I am new to hrt and unskilled at emotion driven social interactions. Now my query, I am one and a half months into moderate doses of e and spiro. Everyone told me that there would be some emotional swings and I said that I was ready for them. Was I ever wrong! Tears over everything from bad makeup to puppy stories,  and I won't even begin on the empathetic sadness and grief from some of the stories that come across this forum. There are some really hurting folks sharing their souls that really drain my tear ducts. My question for those of you with some time under your e belts, will these emotional swings stabilize over time, do you get used to them, how do you cope? Don't get me wrong, I actually love the ability to feel such strong emotions (and I do enjoy the flack my wife gives me over now who is the teary one), but hey, this can sometimes get pretty out of hand. I look forward to your inputs, Anne
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tgirlamg

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August 12, 2016, 07:38:59 AM Last Edit: August 12, 2016, 01:48:15 PM by tgirlamc
Hi Anne!...I am just shy of three years in and here are my thoughts...To some degree I think things even out a bit but I believe you will come to accept this as the new normal..  It seems more extreme at the beginning because it is such a departure from where you were before... It can be quite a rollercoaster at time but I have leaned to love it all... The highs and lows of feeling life deeply... I often use this analogy when explains the difference to others...

Testosterone is like living somewhere with little change between the seasons and estrogen is seeing it all... Beautiful Springs, Warm summer days.... Spectacular , yet  meloncholy autumns and some of the darkest coldest winters you will ever know... They make you appreciate the spring days all the more...

By the way... Sometimes you experience all this before breakfast!!!. Welcome to womanhood!!! :)


Onward we go!!!

Ashley :)
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

Ashley's Corner: https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247549.0.html 🌻
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Anne Blake

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August 13, 2016, 09:49:40 PM
Hello Ashley, Thank you for the words of encouragement. This has been an amazing ride so far. I knew at the beginning of this journey that it was what I wanted and it has been so much more than I had hoped for. As you mentioned, the emotions hit all ends of the spectrum (sometimes all at the same time) but I would not give up this ability to "Feel" so much for anything. You mentioned that you are three years into this magic ride, does it stay this intense or do you begin to get used to it and perhaps not so much appreciate its uniqueness? It would seem a shame to gain all of this new sensitivity and then get too used to it and forget just how special it is. Anne
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tgirlamg

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August 13, 2016, 10:02:26 PM
Hi Anne!...

Three years in have done nothing to dim my appreciation of my new emotional makeup... You do get used to the swings to some degree... I have learned to recognize the low points that can come out of nowhere for the hormone inspired events they are and come to recognize they will pass as quickly as they came...

You are going to have amazing things ahead... This journey is an ever unfolding series of revelations ....revelations about yourself, your past, how much your GD colored your world more than you ever knew and revelations about your place in the world and the road ahead!

Onward we go Sister!

Ashley :)
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

Ashley's Corner: https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247549.0.html 🌻
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Anne Blake

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August 14, 2016, 08:37:10 AM
Awesome! And what an emotionally great message to get at the beginning of my day. Thank you Ashley.

Anne
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tgirlamg

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August 14, 2016, 09:18:45 AM
Have a Great Sunday!!! :)!!!!!
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

Ashley's Corner: https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247549.0.html 🌻
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kaitylynn

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August 14, 2016, 09:57:03 AM
Hello Anne!  Yes, the rollercoaster is an awesome ride :)  I am not even to quite a year this time and it is definitely a thrill ride some times, but most times it is a smoothish ride with a few twists thrown in to keep it interesting.  You might feel like you are over the top, but we are emotional creatures and it does not seem too many outside of our casings really see it.

Sometimes you can just sit back to enjoy the ride and over time you will find those points where you realize you are in control.  No matter what, remember that nothing is fixed...nothing is static.  There is a whole range and we are lucky to be able to feel one of the widest ranges a human can :)

<3 >^..^<
Katherine Lynn M.

You've got a light that always guides you.
You speak of hope and change as something good.
Live your truth and know you're not alone.

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tgirlamg

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August 14, 2016, 10:20:05 AM
Hi Kaitylynn from a former SoCal girl... I like the rollercoaster analogy because of the reason people ride them... To feel alive!!!

Take Care,
Ashley :)
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

Ashley's Corner: https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247549.0.html 🌻
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Heather14

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August 14, 2016, 12:29:38 PM
I actually enjoy the rollercoaster ride of emotions. Sine I started HRT things to me just feel better. I thought emotions before HRT were interesting but on HRT they are a vivid wheel of color. I have found I care more about myself. Before, life was getting up, fixing coffee and going to work. Now I take my time getting ready even when I still have to be in male mode. I work mainly around females and they have commented that I seem to be turning into one of the girls and their discussions include me when in the past they were guarded with what they talked about. For me the best way to describe the change is "I am happier than ever". I feel like I fit in now with me.

Enjoy the coaster!
Heather
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CaRenaetx

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August 16, 2016, 08:29:13 AM
Is it just me, or do ya'll also FEEL your emotions more now?  I used to only feel really strong emotions.  I mean, really FEEL them.  Now, like my skin noticing every little bit of rough fabric (or smooth), my emotions are raw.  It's both amazing, good, scary and awesome.  Been HRT for a year now and I love it all, but the emotional sensitivity has shocked me to say the least.
;D
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chrissydr

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August 16, 2016, 10:04:28 AM
I can say that the emotions are def making me ride a wicked roller coaster to say the least. In the past month, i have gone every which way that I think I could possibly go. I wasn't one for emotions before, when I was hiding it. I just spent my time, not talking, not feeling and just plain existing.... now that I am releasing the feelings and feeling them more, I am feeling them wicked amounts.

I have to watch how I handle things a bit more as I have had panic attacks from not used to feeling them. But they are getting better. One thing, that I have had to keep under wraps as well is my romantic interests.  A crush ended up almost killing me. But I am still better off now then I was before all of this, and wouldn't change it for the world.

-Chrissy
I dunno... I was normal, throughout my life, until I turned 4 and realised that I shouldn't be called a he.
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SadieBlake

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August 17, 2016, 05:35:36 PM
My first wakeup to the more emotional me was when I shifted from laughing hard (at a sexually charged Eddie Murphy stand-up) to crying uncontrollably.

I tear up more often and once started, I can't will myself to stop. Gain a modicum of control maybe but stopping happens when the emotions have run their course.
🌈👭 lesbian, troublemaker ;-) 🌈🏳️‍🌈
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