Just discovered and accepted the fact that I'm a transgender female. It's been something that I've lived with my whole life, but pushed to my subconscious. Raised as a boy, I did all I could to be like other boys. I became good at acting like a man, with manly interests and upholding expectations set upon me for being born with a penis. I knew I was a genuine fake, but it's never been so obvious to others, though I suspect they knew I was different because of something I might say or do that would throw them off, a bit.
I married at a young age (18), joined the military (USAF), and had five boys. Now, years later, my inner woman is screaming to be set free. I told my wife first and she's very supportive. She didn't say one way or another whether she would remain married with me, but I expressed my want to remain married. She told me that she's not a lesbian and I told her that I respect whatever decision she makes because she has a right to be happy, too.
I'm slowly starting to come out to people in my life. In October, the military will publish a publication for those who would be involved with transitioning service members to their gender identity and I intend to pursue that avenue for my transition, as it would be the most cost effective for me and I would be able to continue to serve. I've already started voice training (self teaching through tutorials). I can't wait to begin hormones. I believe that to be a milestone in my progress to bringing out my true self.
~Siobhán
