So my best friend was driving me home from watching a local wrestling show and we were talking about bodybuilding. I jokingly asked if he was going to watch Mr Olympia this year and he said that's gay and that he thinks I'm gay. I said nah, and he said I'm pretty sure you are.
I said I can't be gay, I'm three nil up, three women zero men slept with. (which is actually pretty pathetic for a 32 year old) He said but the last time you couldn't even get it up. I counter with the fact that I still did two times before. He maintained that it doesn't matter. What matters is who you're attracted to. Kept going on about how it's ok to be gay and there's nothing to be ashamed of. Seeing how he wouldn't drop it I ended up saying "Not quite".
That seemed to encourage him further. What does that mean? Not quite? I said it doesn't mean anything. It means I'm not gay. He said no, not quite means you're close. So are you bi?
I lied and said no. Then he asked if I was a crossdresser. He said I know you are. I was astonished and asked how he could possibly know that. He said cos he's not an idiot. So what is it? What are you hiding? He seemed to know there was more.
I looked ahead and quietly said "I'm trans". And he said I know you are. I've known that for years. He accused me of living a lie. I said that's too strong. He asked again if I'm living a lie and I said what is truth? He said now you're just trying to be clever. He said I knew there was another side to you you were hiding I was just waiting for you to say it. I asked why he didn't say anything earlier then, and he said because you'd probably run and hide for four more years.
He asked if I hated being a man, I avoided the question but he kept asking and I finally said yes. He asked if I wanted the surgery and I said yes. He said he finds it weird but that's just him, and thats only because he doesn't have what I do. I said you find it weird? I find it weird too. I don't know what to make of this most times. He asked why I don't transition and I brought up that there's alot of bigotry and he said there's alot of support too. He knows I hide in my room alot, but I left it saying that I'm not likely to change, but who knows. He told me to stop hiding things and that he's the best friend I'll ever have. I go home with my head bowed but I sent him a pic of me in feminine clothes and he said "bless ya".
