Very confused about what to do with my self. Hormones, surgery...nothing?

[Berliegh]

Hello,

I've felt like I've been in the wrong body for a long time. I'm a very emotionally stable person with a good life. I have no disorders.

I've wanted for a long time to be female, but I know how much it costs, I want to have children, and I want to look good. I really really don't want to look like a guy with boobs. My hands are big, I'm 5'9", I have a large chest, my bones are large....I'm handsome. I can pull off the androgynous look if I have just the right clothing, but I'm very concerned.

Changing gender is almost impossible and isn't very successful in many cases. I still worry about the horrible thought of looking like a bloke with boobs rather than a normal female.....it's not my idea of a gender change and a lot of people go into it without realising the physical limitations they have. I'm 5'7" and have small hands and feet and facial features but I'm still struggling sometimes..

[Cire]

Big day today!

The therapist that I've been seeing for a couple months has just told me that he will write any note that I need for an endo! Now I just need to figure out how to see one, and figure out what kind of verbage I need for the letter to show the endo.

I'm so excited!