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Started by Drexy/Drex, September 26, 2016, 09:24:08 PM

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Drexy/Drex

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So the possible  end result of basic ffs for me with forehead  reconstruction I don't know what type
though certainly  better than I expected  and that's without. skin resurfacing  etc
I think  that look will suit my frame... I'll  not be beautiful  nor pretty  but the handsome woman androgynous look will satisfy  me I have a few more to post but I'm  certainly  glad. I got the virtuals  done

Oh damn. How do you get past this pay?

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LizK

I use this one https://imgur.com/ and its free. Don't know about photo bucket
Transition Begun 25 September 2015
HRT since 17 May 2016,
Fulltime from 8 March 2017,
GCS 4 December 2018
Voice Surgery 01 February 2019
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Drexy/Drex

Thanks Liz I'll  check it out 😊
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Drexy/Drex

https://imgur.com/a/EA2W0

Well there were three gifs that showed from original to final as each procedure  was applied  but I haven't  worked out how to load those
Anyway  from hideous  to bearable  with the basics... better than I could  have hoped for 😊
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Drexy/Drex

#124
Well I have no idea where to postt this so here will do I think ive got the image thing right now
First I have to say I'm  so glad I had Ukffs  do these virtuals Alexandra is very experienced
and as you can read from her assessment  pays attention  to fine details
these virtuals just show the basic FFS procedures applied,  as you can see no make up or skin procedures  which I intend  to have... the wig was superimposed on the image
For me it gives myself and the surgeon  I work with something  to work with as to be quite honest  I could not visualise what an outcome could be and the idea of just going into surgery  in mystery  did not appeal to me
and it also gives me hope where I thought  there was none as I've said before this would suit my frame I'll  not be pretty  or beautiful  but I can have the handsome woman look which will suit my size
Alexandra was very patient  with me... I had an extreme  meltdown  after my psychologists
Clumsy  handling  of me regards my masculine   looks etc... so I was quite erratic
Needless  to say my money was well spent and what I got in return  far exceeded  what I paid
Truly an invaluable  service.

Here is the link to FFS UK site.       


https://www.google.com.au/search?client=ms-android-oppo&ei=HQKuWeLYKsfK0gSo-pO4CA&q=virtual+ffs&oq=virtual+ffs&gs_l=mobile-gws-serp.1.0.0j0i22i30k1l2.28481.39658.0.44822.17.15.0.2.2.0.1007.5134.2-2j5j1j1j1j1.11.0....0...1.1j4.64.mobile-gws-serp..8.9.2293.1..41j46j0i67k1j0i131k1j0i46k1j0i10k1.gaOgHUYKPcI














Hello Mark.

Please remember that these virtuals are not and could not be 100% accurate but I hope they will give you a good idea of the possibilities and take you a long way towards planning how best to proceed.

Also remember that just like a surgeon, I am fallible and although I take quite an obsessive amount of care over virtuals, I will inevitably make a mistake every so often.

Working from photographs is not the same as seeing a person in real life. Camera lenses can affect the facial proportions to some extent and the lighting in a photograph can also affect how a face looks.

Facial surgery is not an exact science and while I can control the changes I make in Photoshop completely, a surgeon may not be able to control things with quite so much precision in real life.

The eye takes a little while to tune-in to facial changes so you may be disappointed at first glance. It is best to spend a few days getting used to the pictures before you make any decisions.

I have created 4 different versions of your pictures (a) to (d) adding extra procedures for each version. Here is a list of changes in each version:

(a) shows eyebrow plucking, brow bossing removal and rhinoplasty.
(b) includes lip lift, jaw narrowing and reduction, and chin narrowing and rounding.
(c) includes a face and neck lift.
(d) includes hormonal effects and beard removal.

I have also included an extra version of the 3/4 shot (e) with some hair and make-up added to help you visualise the possibilities. I managed to take the wig from one of the of the other pictures you sent me. I hope it gives you a clearer idea of the possibilities.


Hair:
Your hair has receded to the point that it is probably not going to be possible to regain a useful head of hair. There are some really good wigs available. Human hair is the best I believe and it is usually worth spending money on a good quality one. A more advanced wig option would be the "Cesare Ragazzi CNC Hair Prosthesis System". I have heard good things about it, but haven't seen it myself in real life. I suspect it is expensive and you have to visit one of their specialists every few weeks to have it reattached. Here is a video about it, but beware - this is clearly an advertisement so watch it sceptically and do your own research to confirm that the system is as good as they say.



There are some experiments going on at the moment into curing baldness and these may be an option in a few years time. Here are a couple of links:

http://www.nytimes.com/2012/07/29/business/baldness-battle-fought-in-the-follicle.html?_r=0

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/health/7431092.stm


Forehead:
The forehead is by far the most important area in facial gender. The male forehead usually has a bony ridge running across it at about eyebrow level called brow bossing, It also tends to have vertical ridges either side of the forehead ("temporal ridges") and often has a bump on either side of the upper forehead ("frontal eminences"). The female forehead is smoother and flatter with less pronounced ridges and bumps, and it usually has either no bossing, or very little bossing.

In your case there is no strong ridge of bossing - it's more a case of your whole forehead being somewhat projected. This means that from the front you don't see a strong ridge, but from the side, you can see that your forehead stands well forwards of your eyes making them a little deep-set.

I have set the bossing area back and taken a little off the upper forehead to but because your bossing does not look strong, the effect looks fairly subtle. I have also opened out your orbits to give you a more open, feminine expression. This is done by removing a little bone from the underside of the orbital rim.

You also have frontal eminences. These can be smoothed down as part of the forehead feminisation and I have simulated the effect.

I generally recommend that people find a surgeon who can do a forehead reconstruction which sets the bone over the frontal sinus back. The other method, where the bone is only ground down, can be very limited as most people have quite thin bone here. According to one study, the thinnest part is, on average only between 2.6 and 2.9 mm thick. It is difficult to know how thick a patient's sinus wall is in advance, even if you take an xray.

One thing to keep in mind is that forehead surgery requires a long incision - usually from ear to ear over the top of the head. This scar would be visible if you were not wearing a wig or hat. Facial Team, who I collaborate with are able to put the incision round the back of the head where there is usually good hair to hide it under. It would still be visible if your head is shaved of course.

It is easy to get confused about forehead surgery and the various options, so I recommend that you have a read through my web page on the forehead:

http://www.virtualffs.co.uk/Forehead.html


Frown Lines:
You have some vertical frown lines between your eyebrows. Reducing vertical lines is rejuvenating but it's also feminising because it softens your expression. I have simulated the effect. The lines may be reduced by the lifting of the forehead soft tissues during forehead surgery, and can be further reduced temporarily with botox. For a more permanent botox effect you can have the surgeon work on the underlying muscles during a brow lift or forehead feminisation surgery. However, like botox, this does reduce the lines but may also limit movement of the muscles to some degree.


Eyebrow height:
Your eyebrows sit in medium position. They will lift a little with forehead surgery and I have simulated the effect. The lift that comes with brow bossing removal tends to be reasonably subtle, but it does help to emphasise a more open, feminine expression.


Eyebrow shape:
Women tend to have thinner eyebrows than men. Yours are a little thick so I have plucked them, mostly along the underside to give them a thinner and more feminine shape. This also increases the distance between your eyes and eyebrows and that has a feminising effect. The natural underlying shape of your eyebrows is really good.


Eyes:
I don't see any problems with your eyes or the soft tissues around them. You have large eyes in proportion to your face - this is feminine and a good asset.


Nose profile view:
From the side, your nose is somewhat large and the bridge of your nose is humped. The hump is not technically a masculinity, but removing it to give the bridge a straight profile will have a feminising effect. I have lowered the bridge to reduce the size and remove the hump. Removing the hump will also cause the tip to lift a little as I have simulated. This also has a feminising effect.


Nose frontal view:
From the front your nose is already good. You should see a slight narrowing of the upper bridge and a slight lift to the tip in the simulation.


Nostrils:
The width and height of your nostrils is fine. You do not need to make any adjustments.


Cheek bones:
I don't see any problems with your cheekbones, and I don't recommend any changes.


Apple of the cheeks:
The apple of your cheeks (the soft part) would become fuller and rounder on hormones and I have simulated this for you. It is impossible to predict exactly how the hormones will affect you (everyone's different) but I've given you an idea of the kind of change you can expect.


Naso-labial folds:
These are the creases that come down from the corners of your nose and they tend to get a little deeper as we age. They are gender-neutral and have no masculinising effect.

Yours are completely normal and you don't need to worry about them. I only mention them because some surgeons recommend filling them, even in cases where they are not at all deep or are barely visible. All that would do is make your surgery more expensive.


Upper lip to nose distance:
The distance between the top lip and the nose tends to be shorter in women, and they also tend to show some of their upper teeth when their mouth is open and relaxed.

Your lip to nose distance is long and you don't show any upper teeth when your mouth is open. I have given you a lip lift to correct this. This procedure is both feminising and rejuvenating but it does leave a small scar at the base of the nose.


Lip fullness:
Your lips are quite thin. You could fill them a little if you wanted to for a mildly feminising effect but it would probably be best to see how the lip lift looks before you make any additional adjustments. I have not tried to simulate lip filling on top of the lip lift.

I recommend non-permanent fillers at first so that you can see the effect. If you like it, you could consider a fat transfer which can become permanent after a few sessions. I also recommend that you take a fairly subtle approach because over filled lips do not look good.


Chin height and shape:
I think the height of your chin is about right but the shape is wide and square. I have shaved off the corners to give it a narrower and more rounded and feminine shape.


Chin projection:
Your chin projection is good so you do not need to move it forwards or backwards.


Chin soft tissues:
Some people have very thin soft tissue on the chin. This means that the chin bone shows through well and so will any changes you make to the bone. Other people have very thick soft tissues on the chin. This means that the chin bone is hidden under a thick blanket of tissue and that can make it more difficult to see any changes to the bone structure. It is not possible for me to know how thick the soft tissues are from your pictures so I have adjusted your pictures on the assumption that the thickness is average. Just keep in mind that it is possible that the result would be more limited in real life if your soft tissues are thick.


Jaw:
Your jaw area is a little difficult to analyse. It looks like your jaw is wide and heavy. However you appear to be extremely muscular and that makes it likely that your chewing muscles are large. This can add a lot of width to the jaw. It is also possible that your soft tissues are quite think here. If the soft tissue is thick, it can make it difficult to see ay changes to the underlying bone.

The technique used to narrow the rear of your jaw would depend on whether the width is due to bone or muscle or both. If it is muscle then botox is a good and non-invasive way of reducing it. This is much safer, much cheaper and much less painful than trying to reduce the muscle surgically. If the width is due to bone then you would need surgery to reduce it. If the width is due to both muscle and bone, then you might need a combination of both. However, the chewing muscles will reduce on their own if some of the bone is reduced.

Estrogen reduces muscle mass all over the body so if you have large chewing muscles, you may see a notable reduction in the size of your chewing muscles. Wait at least a year on a full dose of estrogen to see the effect.

I have narrowed and reduced your jaw but because of the uncertain elements, there is some guesswork involved. You may find that in real life the reduction is greater once all the effects of hormones, bone reduction and lifting come together.


Chin and jaw surgery incisions:
Some surgeons work on the jaw and chin by making external incisions. This is completely unnecessary and leaves very visible scars. The best place to make the incisions is inside the mouth - this means that the scars will be invisible.


Adam's apple:
You have a visible adam's apple and I have simulated a tracheal shave to reduce it for you.

There are two ways of approaching the adam's apple when you do a tracheal shave. The old-fashioned method involves putting the incision right on the adam's apple. There are 2 problems with this - firstly it leaves the scar in a very noticeable position, and secondly. you can get adhesions where the scar tissue sticks to the adam's apple. That means that the skin can be tugged in an unnatural way when your adam's apple moves, such as when you are talking or singing.

The more modern method involves putting the incision under the chin and then tunnelling down towards the adam's apple. This means that the scar is in a much less noticeable place, and you avoid the adhesion problem. I strongly recommend that you find a surgeon who uses the under-chin approach.

However, there is a chance that what looks like an adam's apple in the pictures, might only be loose soft tissue.


Hormones:
I have simulated hormonal effects for you - mainly narrowing the jaw a little and filling the cheeks but they also soften and feminise the skin texture.

Simulating the skin softening is difficult and there is a lot of guesswork involved but I have made a cautious simulation on the effect for you.

These changes can be very powerful, especially when combined with beard removal.


Face lift:
I have given you a lower face and neck lift. This procedure is more about rejuvenation than feminisation but having said that, younger faces do tend to look more feminine than older ones for various reasons. There are various benefits like tightening up the cheeks, giving a nice definition to your jaw line, reducing the naso-labial folds and tightening up the soft tissues of the neck.

It is very important to have any lifting done after jaw/chin surgery and not before or during. This is because jaw and chin surgery cause a lot of swelling and this works against the lifting. It is also impossible to know in advance how much swelling you will experience or how well your soft tissues will re-adapt to the new bone and that means it is not possible to know exactly how much to lift. It is best to wait a few months for the swelling to go down, and then you can see clearly exactly what needs to be done with the soft tissues. Some surgeons will offer to do both jaw/chin surgery and lifting at the same time. I advise against it.


Beard:
I have reduced your beard shadow for you. Beard removal can be achieved with electrolysis and/or laser. People have mixed results with laser but there are many different types.  Laser does not work on grey, white or very light hairs. Electrolysis is also an option either for a complete beard, or just for the pale hairs that are left after laser. As far as I know, "galvanic" electrolysis is less likely to cause scarring.


Priorities:
Your facial structure is not strongly masculine. What gives you a masculine look is more to do with the shaved head, beard shadow and heavy musculature. That's why you look so good in the make-over pictures. I think the forehead, nose upper lip, jaw and chin changes are all useful feminisation for you. But of course, it is just as important to focus on the secondary changes - hormonal effects, beard removal, eyebrow plucking, wig etc.


A good way to view your pictures is to use photo viewing software like Windows Photo Viewer. This will allow you to jump from the before to the after/s and back again by using the arrow buttons on your keyboard. However, you might have to rename the pictures if you want them to flow in a different order.

If you have "Photoshop" or "Photoshop Elements" you can load up a before and after picture at the same time and then by holding down "Ctrl" and pressing "F6" you can flick between the two. This often works for other photo software too.

I have improved the photographic qualities of your pictures (contrast, focus, colour balance etc.) so I am sending you copies of the before shots with the same improvements to make them easier to compare with the after shots.

The pictures are yours so feel free to share them and the assessment with any support groups you are member of if you want some second opinions. Do take prints to your consultations with surgeons or email them in advance - most surgeons welcome them.

Please email me to confirm that the pictures have arrived. If you have any questions about your pictures and your assessment please feel free to email me.

Let me know if you want any surgeon recommendations.

You can find out more about facial gender and FFS by reading through my website.

Please note that I regularly collaborate with Dr Simon and Dr Capitán of Facial Team. Some of the procedures I simulate are based on my discussions of surgical technique with them and on watching them operate. However, not all surgeons take the same approach, and not all surgeons have the level of skill required for all the changes I simulate.

The changes described in this assessment and illustrated in the pictures represent my opinion as an artist. You and/or your surgeon/s may disagree with my opinions. I cannot guarantee that my opinion is good or that the pictures are accurate so if you act according to my opinion, you do so at your own risk.

Thank you very much for entrusting me with your virtual FFS - I very much hope the pictures are helpful.

If you are pleased with my service, please consider writing a short testimonial for me that I could put on my website. It could be a single line or several lines. You can be completely anonymous if you prefer, or just use an initial. A location is useful but it doesn't have to be any more specific than listing what country you are from. It's entirely up to you though so please do not feel any obligation to write one or even to give a reason for not writing one.

Good luck and best wishes,

Alexandra.





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Drexy/Drex

Saw my gender therapist  today got my documentation  she was very interested  in the FFS virtuals  and noted it down for her other clients  , before  hand  I had been sitting  in the waiting room and when it was time came in used my female name and at the end took me out to reception  and refered to me as she.... all in very pleasant
Then saw my doc handed my letter over... Which basically  said I'm normal 😊
and to go forward so now my Hrt dose has been upped and Spiro  thrown into the mix as well I mentioned  I did not want all my test wiped out as some is needed for good health.. his response  was that females have almost nil  and that it comes from some conversion i  of fat ??? Ill  keep my eye on it....
He also acknowledged that he reaslises  that I am someone who is used to looking after themselves but to allow him to diagnose me,  that's okay he is actually  interested in my well being its quite obvious....
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LizK

Quote from: markie on August 11, 2017, 01:23:19 AM
Saw my gender therapist  today got my documentation  she was very interested  in the FFS virtuals  and noted it down for her other clients  , before  hand  I had been sitting  in the waiting room and when it was time came in used my female name and at the end took me out to reception  and refered to me as she.... all in very pleasant
Then saw my doc handed my letter over... Which basically  said I'm normal 😊
and to go forward so now my Hrt dose has been upped and Spiro  thrown into the mix as well I mentioned  I did not want all my test wiped out as some is needed for good health.. his response  was that females have almost nil  and that it comes from some conversion i  of fat ??? Ill  keep my eye on it....
He also acknowledged that he reaslises  that I am someone who is used to looking after themselves but to allow him to diagnose me,  that's okay he is actually  interested in my well being its quite obvious....

Oh Wow how cool is that...you must be over the moon about this.

Its good that he is going to take care of you. Having someone looking out for your health during this HRT start up period is probably going to be a really positive thing...

Congratulations and I hope it goes well
Transition Begun 25 September 2015
HRT since 17 May 2016,
Fulltime from 8 March 2017,
GCS 4 December 2018
Voice Surgery 01 February 2019
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Drexy/Drex

Yes Liz it is a total turn around.... Kinda  unreal... 😊
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Drexy/Drex

This honeymoon with Hrt is full of surprises apart from  the calmness  I feel,  I have to actually  consciously speak up up now otherwise I come across to quietly,  but the strangest  thing is random woman come up to me to ask me questions  or  get a closer look at me and flirt and when I've got my Goth kilt on, boots etc, makeup I get slot of admiration  from females even if their with there boyfriends  ....i guess that masculine wall I spent so much time building  is coming  down brick by brick
Though the visceral aggression  is gone... which worried  me a bit in its place is a calm sort of calculating intention  instead,  when I take up Thai boxing  again and crav maga it will be useful as rather than reacting I'll  be clear minded which means better judgement 
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Laurie

Hi Markie,

  It sounds like you are already getting some good fringe benefits from your HRT. Good for you. I love seeing things start working for someone. I've got to get around to reading your back story but 62 pages is a huge amount. sigh
Someday.

Hugs,
   Laurie
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Drexy/Drex

Quote from: Laurie on August 13, 2017, 03:54:46 AM
Hi Markie,

  It sounds like you are already getting some good fringe benefits from your HRT. Good for you. I love seeing things start working for someone. I've got to get around to reading your back story but 62 pages is a huge amount. sigh
Someday.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Thanks Laurie 😊  yes fringe benefits  it's good.... omg  62 pages.... Yes I know what you mean I went a fair way back through Lizs  it quite a job back threading....
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Drexy/Drex

6 weeks or so have passed .... i knew my body would react  well to estrogen but I wasn't  prepared for how quickly the changes are occurring  up top thi gs are heading north fairly rapidly it wont be long before  i will no longer be able to wear a singlet to the gym.
I was somewhat startled at how downstairs  reacted and a bit worried , but then i found it just doesn't  happen on demand anymore but rather when i,m in the mood and basically  dry orgasms,i dont mind as i dont miss the mess lol.
At work i think people realize somethings happening but for them its more of a  case of perplexment like when you see something  out of the corner of your eye and look and then its gone  but i get a few people doing a double take on me
and a couple of guys have groped me lol its a subconscious  thing  as with male hrt my body is pumping out pheromones  which is confusing some guys ,awkward  moment at the wetmess when the guy sitting next to me decided to suddenly  demonstrate how someother guy had groped a girl at the bar luckily  i had an a4 sheet of paper in my pocket otherwise he would have definitely  noticed ...
I am amazed  at how my thinking  and emotions have changed,  it seems I am much warmer towards others
more willing to listen  and people who used to ignore me now smile at me overall  I connect  bette especially  with woman, others are more playful and cheeky towards me...  I think before many were intimidated  by me due to my size etc but I've dropped  8 pounds of muscle now.
The doc was quite amused about the groping incidents but he wants me to stop lifting weights  and just run instead.. when I objected he said we are trying  to feminise  you.... Well my strength  has dropped where I could beach press 220 pounds 30 times straight  without  pause I now can only manage  3 sets of ten ie 10 then rest then another ten etc
But overall I feel really  good like life is worth living  now.
and little things like  my eye lashes   growing..and darkning . it almost looks like I have mascara  on top and bottom   are so rewarding  ...ha wish my hair would follow suit
Looks like this is the right fuel for me


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Laurie

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Hi Markie,

Yep been awhile, I can say that Susan's is my home I think. I don't have much interaction opportunity with men here in my room. I look around and only see me. I imagine that it's fun for you though. I think I can say I'm not angry like I used to be but yes I still can get upset over petty BS from the management here at my apartments. My emotions have change for sure. It feels at times that anything can make me cry and frequently does. My lab people at the VA and my electrolysis tell me to drink lots of water not leak it.
  Oh well it does sound like you are doing well with the hrt and enjoying it. I'm happy for you.

Hugs,
   Laurie
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Drexy/Drex

Hi Laurie well.... as far as interaction  with men goes our work force is about 95% men and we are on site for 2weeks at a time before flying  home on r&r....it used to be four weeks on site but now due to economic  circumstances it's less.. time on site... which means less money... but the wages have followed  suit as well
up here you have no choice   but to interact as work,eat and play together
my pyschiatrist  recommended  I set some boundaries  to stop that horse play,  I'm not particularly  attracted to men I prefer females , when I'm at home I basi  keep to myself  as I always have.. im  quite  happy to sit at home nursing a drink or 2 or 3 listening  to music or watching TV with my cats lolling  beside me on the couch I guess my most social interaction  is when I go to the gym or at work
but at work we are a team.. he's dangerous  work and we watch over each  other... so in some ways it'sike an extended  family I've been lucky this time the whole crew is composed  of really great people  never worked with such an awesome  crew unfortunately  the job will end in another 2 months.. I had been hop  it would last long enough  so that someone would finally  clock me at the wetness which is when I'd make my statement
as like Barbie says "just do it! "
and as Ashley  says " Onward we go "
I haven't had any crying binges yet but over the years in order to survive  I've developed  a fairly thick skin and I also trained myself not to show emotion  or flinch
Since starting  this Hrt I have noticed as mellow as I can be I also have a mercurial temper and a couple of time I have cut loose... Caught me by surprise  ...I'll  have to watch that but even so though I thought I might become  timid and shy... It's completely  opposite ...seems like no fear
Still it's early days... my doc is amused he says I have... no idea? whats coming.. he said my body was made for her... hmm I almost  feel like he thinks I'm some sort of dolly to dress up etc 😂😂😂
I am on a low dose of Lexapro so perhaps that stabilises me
thanks Laurie 😊

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LizK

Quote from: markie on September 22, 2017, 09:09:56 AM
6 weeks or so have passed .... i knew my body would react  well to estrogen but I wasn't  prepared for how quickly the changes are occurring  up top thi gs are heading north fairly rapidly it wont be long before  i will no longer be able to wear a singlet to the gym.
I was somewhat startled at how downstairs  reacted and a bit worried , but then i found it just doesn't  happen on demand anymore but rather when i,m in the mood and basically  dry orgasms,i dont mind as i dont miss the mess lol.
At work i think people realize somethings happening but for them its more of a  case of perplexment like when you see something  out of the corner of your eye and look and then its gone  but i get a few people doing a double take on me
and a couple of guys have groped me lol its a subconscious  thing  as with male hrt my body is pumping out pheromones  which is confusing some guys ,awkward  moment at the wetmess when the guy sitting next to me decided to suddenly  demonstrate how someother guy had groped a girl at the bar luckily  i had an a4 sheet of paper in my pocket otherwise he would have definitely  noticed ...
I am amazed  at how my thinking  and emotions have changed,  it seems I am much warmer towards others
more willing to listen  and people who used to ignore me now smile at me overall  I connect  bette especially  with woman, others are more playful and cheeky towards me...  I think before many were intimidated  by me due to my size etc but I've dropped  8 pounds of muscle now.
The doc was quite amused about the groping incidents but he wants me to stop lifting weights  and just run instead.. when I objected he said we are trying  to feminise  you.... Well my strength  has dropped where I could beach press 220 pounds 30 times straight  without  pause I now can only manage  3 sets of ten ie 10 then rest then another ten etc
But overall I feel really  good like life is worth living  now.
and little things like  my eye lashes   growing..and darkning . it almost looks like I have mascara  on top and bottom   are so rewarding  ...ha wish my hair would follow suit
Looks like this is the right fuel for me

Hi Markie

I have been a bit preoccupied of late sorting out some stuff sorry I missed this and I think I owe you an email...sorry :) . Sounds to me this HRT stuff it really starting to make an impression. I am so glad you are happy with the results. Dunno how I would feel about the groping...I do now but maybe not 6 weeks into it...I saw your response to Laurie and Just wanted to say I am happy to see you feeling good. That gal is pushing her way out  ;) it wont be long and I am sure you will find the right time to tell your crew but who knows may not have to tell them. take care
Transition Begun 25 September 2015
HRT since 17 May 2016,
Fulltime from 8 March 2017,
GCS 4 December 2018
Voice Surgery 01 February 2019
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Drexy/Drex

Hi Liz that's okay about the email, well you know you're  right maybe I won't have to say anything... I think that it maybe  obvious once I have my FFS.... I dont feel the need to reveal  myself  ill  probably  stick to my androgynous  dress code... in some ways I guess I'm a tomboy  lol... if that is so that and being lesbian should smooth my path at work.... my major  concern is getting  work which is where androgyny  will help.... I hope 😅
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Drexy/Drex

Got my latest hormone  results back
Estrogen  sitting  at  63 Pg/ml  which is a bit lower than a healthy female  so I need to up that I think if my body is to be femminsed
Test is 0.5 nmol/l or 14 ng/dl which is a healthy female range just as well I did not kill it off with spiro!!
Other then that I feel great 😄I think  estrogen  is the fuel for me just need more
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Laurie

Quote from: markie on September 27, 2017, 01:34:50 AM
Got my latest hormone  results back
Estrogen  sitting  at  63 Pg/ml  which is a bit lower than a healthy female  so I need to up that I think if my body is to be femminsed
Test is 0.5 nmol/l or 14 ng/dl which is a healthy female range just as well I did not kill it off with spiro!!
Other then that I feel great 😄I think  estrogen  is the fuel for me just need more

Hi Markie,

  My Estradiol wasn't much at the 9 month mark. My reading was 72.2 pg/mL which was much lower than the time before which was at about 6 months in 158.4 pg/mL. I believe the main difference was the time between taking a dose and being tested. The most recent (72.2) was taken in the mid morning with my last dose having been taken around 10pm the night before. Whereas the were only s few hours between the time of dosage and testing with the 158.4 reading.

  My GP would like to see readings above 200. I think it odd that I have seen no guidance for when test should be taken after taking the  estradiol as the readings vary wildly based on time after taking the medication.

Hugs,
   Laurie
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Drexy/Drex

Hi Laurie that's interesting.....  yes true about when timing and tests.... I feel  that estrogen has to be a lot higher
in order to femminise  the body  I've had mine sky  high through homeostatsis and all I got was a bit of lactation...
maybe the delivey  method makes a difference  I'm  going to see about injections as so much is lost through ingestion  ...maybe 5 % makes it into the blood stream and about 25% sublingual so missing  out a massive  75%
in some ways lucky with my low t production, but that came about after years of male Hrt which shut down my own t,  some t is needed it's not good to wipe it out,  I'm aiming for genetic  female  numbers 😊
I think the way to go is high until feminisation  occurs then back off to a maintainer dose
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