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Been a bit flat lately.... traced it back to zero test, So saw the Dr and he prescribed anadrol, I'm taking half the dose and every second day instead of daily
I don't want any less or more than the healthy female range, I didn't mind having zero test but with that there was no sexual thoughts or impulse not to mention no physical drive.
And now that I have made some new lesbian friends... I might have a sex life again... I haven't had sex sin since starting transition.
I met my new friend through an adult site..
Actually I was. amazed at the amount of women who are looking for cd, tv, ts people in the end I took my profile off... I'd made contact with someone nice and being Fifo I just don't have the time to reply and follow up all the replies.
Sooo I met my new friends at a night club,
Wow they were so warm and welcoming and lots of questions... how far was I into transition, did I use the girls, was I going for grs
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being non binary I could get by. without it, .. saves interrupting the moment "with excuse me while I put this on" was Lisa's humorous reply, and then I was asked whether I liked men... no I replied... which was met with... Well maybe that might change.... Well yes it may do🙄
Anyway we had a great night out.
Wow do those girls know how to party.
I got clocked by a transgirl in my local chemist I wasn't sure if she was ftm or mtf as she had an andro look, until she spoke when she complimented me on my boots.... I really should have taken time out with her but I was on my last day of r&r and in a rush... I regret that now,
hopefully we will meet again as she lives in my locale.
This r&r I came out to my barber/hairdresser not on purpose it just so happened bec's mum was on that day and I asked her what she had thought of the photo bec took and sent to her when I first came back in after ffs.. She said she was amazed and asked why I had it had it done.. at first I just said... I just wanted to soften my appearance... but then thought better and said well actually I'm changing gender where upon she exclaimed oh I thought you looked very feminine... I asked her if bec did wigs and she said yes and to come in the next day,
So I did I asked bec if her mum had told her and yes she said
we talked on about various aspects of transition and she mentioned that her partner who is a Fifo worker too had told her that they had a few hermaphrodite's (love that word.. describes non binary perfectly) and that he wouldn't mind going with them!!! 😉 I also learned of a term used to describe a rough around the edges female who is anything but ladylike 'Diesel Dyke' a sort of pilbara tomboy.... as opposed to a "pilbara princess" I think I might have found my niche
This all while styling my wig and at the end when I asked how much she said no charge both Bec and her mum were so warm towards me.... Woman are so cool
So warm and welcoming I've not had any negative reactions so far.
Back at work I was talking to one of my chick mates during lunch about her hrt.. she had explained to me previously that due to feeling lackuster she went to a Dr who referred her to and endo it was discovered that she was very low in test as well as estrogen and progesterone
So lozenges were made for her by a Compounding chemist (this was the wakeup call for me about my test)
and it was the difference between night and day.... for her.... as lunch ended she said.. I like talking to you your so in tune with women.... 😊
These days I like to spend time with my female colleagues at lunch at the bar etc
It's like a new world I never realised just how marginalised women are by men.
I came out to my bestie g/f she had been away sick and was waiting for the okay from hr to return... I thought I would distract her by coming out to her.
a picture is worth a thousand words so I sent my makeover photo
her response
Was..
Omg amazing
My first thought was beautiful 👌😘💐🌸🌷🦋
Wow barely recognizable.... u look gorgeous
Im stunned.... u do better makeup than what I can
Think i need some pointers off you
Wowzers bom chica wow wow holy mother of beauty u look stunning amazing beautiful
U should do shows ...
That was good for my confidence
She is such a lovely effusive lass
and it was so nice to see her again.
this morning at prestart... We gave each other a big hug.... It was like there was just her and I nobody else existed.... I'm glad her boyfriend is confident in himself hmm he's very masculine I noticed when he sat next to me in the bus.... 🙄😏😉
When I went out on r&r I got my nails done for the first time ever in black metallic flake with pearl.... at first we went gel so it would be easy to take off in preparation for return to work.... but that didn't work out to well
So took the hard alternative I could have taken it off for work but I thought see what happens.... had a multitude of reactions as after all there are 95% males here, from concealed disgust to nervousness and resentment , it makes me laugh i can disappear to the other side of the world for 6 months and return almost unrecognisable looking a feminine man....and no one says boo, but wear nail polish and everyone loses their minds (bit of an exaggeration) for .. In fact some guys avoid me completely... so what i couldn't care a less. its said the truth will set you free but also not giving a - - - - about what other people think of you goes a long way too!!
But just like with the ffs no one mentions the nails except for that chick who previously came up to me in the wet mess and put her hands on my chest and exclaimed "man boobs" this time in our crowded lunch room she grabs my hand and holds it up saying i love your nail polish.... WOW she has a bad case of foot in mouth..... Mmm i also didn't take off my lash extensions I'm sure my there's a lot of underground gossip happening..... which is just fine by me.... things were getting boring.
Admittedly I've worked in civil construction and mining out in the bush for nearly 30 years and never seen a male turn up with painted nails.... except for me 😉
the experience is interesting and actually i kinda like having nail polish on.... love the colours
The young barmaid is a bit put out she likes me and now i think she sees me as a gay man..... 🙄😔 doesn't matter she's way to young for me.
Btw while there are those that resent me there are a few guys who are protective towards me... like some lout started mouthing off about lady boys and how he wanted to be a sex change pole dancer... lol... He got shut down fast.... Like i said before i work with a great bunch of mature people 😊
