Quote from: RobynD on October 01, 2016, 08:09:32 PM
... I'm sort of freaking out in a small way as to how big they could get. I really feel sort of silly for even asking this. ... When i told my doc it would be ok if everything sort of stopped in that area, and i like the results as is, and she predictably laughed and said..." We don't get to choose that dear" and the welcome to womanhood thing.
When I read "freaking out" I was wondering if that meant "seriously concerned as in worried" or "liking the changes but also seriously trying to adjust to the new surreal reality." I sort of think it might be sort of the second possibility with maybe a tinge of perhaps anxiety.
I'm sort of in the middle of B/C... for me that's a significant change but I'm open to more... there are no worries about breast growth but last year that was briefly not the case in a complete sense... I wouldn't say "worry" but slight thoughtfulness/anxiety. A year ago I started HRT and when changes really started to take off I began to really notice breast growth. I really liked it but had a tinge of anxiety/worry... this was at a time when
many significant transition experiences had
yet to occur.
Well, when I stopped for a sec and thought about it... it was clear that my concern was really about my worry about what others would think. I'd always wanted something there which remembering helped me clearly see my concern about what others might think. Repression's a weird powerful thing... one can actually have worry and not truly understand the pointlessness of it in terms of one's own happiness. Uncanny. Anyway, it was a period of adjustment but a fairly quick one...
It doesn't sound like you're too worried or anything but if you have anxiety you might just ask yourself if you like the changes, and if you want more... if the answer is yes, then I say enjoy the process without worry.
I mean, if you have other concerns I hope you'll share them... I guess, generally speaking, I can only imagine worry because of concern for what others think or one not wanting the changes ... or a mixture. I sense you like the changes so that leaves worry over what others might think... or so I think.
Anyway, in my case, knowing I wanted the changes helped me dethrone the power of my concern about (judgment of) what others might think (what I judge others to think).