I'm so scared to admit this...

[genderlessjolyne]

The problem with calling myself neither is that neither also doesn't feel right. For example, my body is somewhat in between in some ways, even though I'm not intersex, since I have PCOS, and I dislike the feeling of being truly in between. It feels wrong to me. It's as if I'm binary in two different ways that don't necessarily match. I have definite dysphoria for a male body, but dislike being called "he", dislike being called "they", but like to be called "she".

you could just be a guy who uses she/her, y?
gender is your oyster, pal, you're totally allowed to cherry pick how you express gender