I am so frustrated lately with my attractions. I don't even know what to do. I'm a trans guy, who is most attracted to butch females, or transmasculine people. I think really I'm attracted to masculinity in some form, but have too many hang ups about cis male genitals.
This makes dating so complicated. I don't know where to even find people like that who are attracted to guys. They all seem to be attracted to girls. I found one, but I feel like it was a fluke, and it was also before I really started passing, so that made it easier.
Unfortunately our relationship didn't last. I'm still torn up about that. But I really need to get myself out there and be social, and maybe eventually start dating again, but I don't know how. I'm just super frustrated. Any advice? Thoughts?
Lately it's even been making me have thoughts of detransitioning. I know I'm male, but life would be easier for me in this regard at least to just live as a lesbian woman.
