I've come out to my entire family some i told in person some i told on Facebook
It was easy enough telling close family but it took a lot for me to tell distant family who i new i'd probably see again one day as a man and not the girl they've known. My grandparents never actually responded on that post i made they never liked it or commented it and to be honest in a strange way half the reason why i posted that was so they'd get the message and i wouldn't have to speak about anything. Problem is i don't think they said anything because i don't think they understand what transgender is and the other reason being they are not very good facebook users they're older and struggle using the computer. All they've said to me is we love you every time i end up in a hospital over this but they probably think its mental knowing my luck because they are still constantly misgendering me and using my full length name that i despise. I've given them a brake because they are older and i'm not wanting to fight old logic
because that never ends good (that is if that's the reason) or maybe i'm thinking the worst? I just wish they'd say something because it's holding me back i'm scared they don't understand this is going to change my body and appearance to a degree and i'm also living inside a apartment complex that they own so it's not possible to avoid them or hide this transition as much as i wish this was a possibility. I'm wanting to take T as soon as possible, and i'm stuck in a rut not knowing what to do because speaking about it probably will end bad either way and i need advice.
Another quick thing my best friend and me have known one another for a very long time and we both get along like brother and sister, she understands and is supportive she even watches videos and ask questions her way of saying she is trying her best to understand and be supportive as possible and i respect her greatly for this effort.
Although i still find myself worried i'm worried that she is supportive and understanding but i'm worried she'll struggle seeing the change even though she said she wants to help me go threw the process. But at the same time has openly admited to me a couple times it's hard to change pronouns and to see me as male and she worries if she doesn't change the pronouns or messes them up it'll hurt me. I've told her i know she tries and its okay.
But she worries about me and her and i worries about me and her and guys i'm nervous because i don't know how to help my best friend realize being slow in this process is okay. And i'm super super worried that i'm going to go to fast for her to catch up or by the time she see's me in person it's going to be so much of a shock she won't know how to react. And i just want to help the both of us.
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These are the BIG concerns that are the main reasons that are now holding me back and if i could just wash them
away i'd probably be okay.
