The realization of how sad I am at Thanksgiving

[stephaniec]

Sorry for the bummer of a post ,, but I 'm feeling the pressure of the holidays.. I've lived with loneliness my entire life so I will survive , but this holiday season is such a bummer. I hadn't talked to what was left of family for 20 years for reasons other than being trans. I was approached by a niece who seemingly was reaching out to me , but in the past year seems to have grown cold. I began talking to one of my sisters recently only to start questioning what her motives are. This is whatever and I can deal with it. The thing that's ripping me to pieces is the fact that my niece has two young children and I fear that the one reason for e cold wind from that direction is the children and the affect of me being trans on them if they knew of me, I mean life can be brutal , but when it hits you in the head it hurts, Sorry for the rant I just needed to get it out.

[Dani]

Stephaniec,

Family issues affect all of us. Some people are accepting and others are not. It would be a shame to not reply to someone whose motives are real and understanding.

On the other hand, if you suspect or experience an ambush, keep your cool and just walk away.

As May West once said, "Is that a mouse in your pocket or are you just happy to see me?"

There is only one way to find out.

Best wishes,

[stephaniec]

thanks, I'm in a better place than I was when I posted that.

[RobynD]

Stephanie...Sorry you are experiencing that, and if your niece is being cold to you over being trans, shame on her and she also misses an opportunity to teach her kids about real love and acceptance of those that are different from themselves.

Isolation is yucky no matter what and yuckier still at this time of the year. Do you have "non-family" family that you can hang out with more? Support groups, other single friends etc?

[DawnOday]

Steph.  Are you a decent cook? Why not cook a nice Thanksgiving meal and invite homeless people or abused women that have got to feel as you do. They say misery loves company. Why not give it a new meaning. You will be putting your mind at ease and they will have something to look forward to. Check out a local support group and see if anybody else is having Thanksgiving alone and invite them over. You do not have to be sad. It's not too  late to plan for it. If it goes well you can do it again at Christmas. Just a suggestion. 

[stephaniec]

I'm a decent cook , but unfortunately I'm also homeless at the moment. I use to always mke aq good thanksgiving day meal. When my German Shepard  was with me we had a great time pigging out.

[stephaniec]

Stephanie...Sorry you are experiencing that, and if your niece is being cold to you over being trans, shame on her and she also misses an opportunity to teach her kids about real love and acceptance of those that are different from themselves.

Isolation is yucky no matter what and yuckier still at this time of the year. Do you have "non-family" family that you can hang out with more? Support groups, other single friends etc?

I usually just hang out with the Aussies on Thanksgiving  on Susan's

[DawnOday]

Sorry to hear about your status. NO VET SHOULD EVER GO HOMELESS, whether you served in wartime or not. You served your country. Time for the country to serve you.

[stephaniec]

 There is  a lot of us out there and the services don't exist. There is a Burger King that is open 24 hrs where I live and I know the night manager. He lets about 10 of us get some rest over night. There are 5 woman in their 50s and 1 in her 70s that are homeless. The woman in her 70s use to be a lawyer who was thrown out by her daughter because her daughters husband didn't like her .

[DawnOday]

I should be counting my blessings as my life has not been as bad as it is in my mind. I lost my job, 5 years ago but luckily I have been on disability because of my level 3 heart disease. And now I get SS. My wife makes pretty good money from her job of 18 years. We also have a nice arrangement for free travel. Lastly my Son lives with us and shares the mortgage payment. I tell you this not as a put down but a sincere, "If not for the grace of God". I'll keep you in my prayers. Maybe I'll hang out on Susans with you and the Aussies as my wife will be working. Take care.

[stephaniec]

yea, we can talk about replacing Trump with the Queen