I don't know, but it makes sense

[taurusyogalady]

I really don't know. I'm a 62 year old female. Lot's throughout my life would make more sense. When I first hit puberty, I initially had more interest in girls. I've never had any feeling down there.  My father passed in 2011. If I could have known before and asked him he would have told me I think. My 82 year old mother's reactions to many things in my life makes more sense now.  I asked her a few days ago if I had any surgeries when I was born. She said, "No. You were not born with anything extra. You only had an embilical cord." I didn't ask her if I was born with anything extra. I will try asking her again.

[Dena]

Welcome to Susan's Place. While gender correction surgery have been preformed on young children, I think you are a bit old to be in the window when they were done. The ability to do that would have started in the early 60's with early gender surgery taking place in the United States. I often attempted to figure out why I was the way I was without finding an answer. In the end, I just decided I was that way and went with it. Now we understand in the case of a FTM, high levels of testosterone before birth alter the brain making it masculine. That can alter both sexual preference and gender identity. I have two links you might want to check out. The first is our WIKI where you will learn more about what transgender is. The second is "the transition channel" where a gender therapist might help you answer some of the questions you have. Let me know if I can help you with anything.

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[V M]

Hi taurusyogalady 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

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V M

[taurusyogalady]

Thanks for the reply. Too old? Ok then. I guess I will look for support in a different forum.https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/History_of_intersex_surgery

Welcome to Susan's Place. While gender correction surgery have been preformed on young children, I think you are a bit old to be in the window when they were done. The ability to do that would have started in the early 60's with early gender surgery taking place in the United States. I often attempted to figure out why I was the way I was without finding an answer. In the end, I just decided I was that way and went with it. Now we understand in the case of a FTM, high levels of testosterone before birth alter the brain making it masculine. That can alter both sexual preference and gender identity. I have two links you might want to check out. The first is our WIKI where you will learn more about what transgender is. The second is "the transition channel" where a gender therapist might help you answer some of the questions you have. Let me know if I can help you with anything.

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[Sno]

Hi, TaurusYogaLady, welcome to Susan's!

I really don't know. I'm a 62 year old female. Lot's throughout my life would make more sense...

This sounds familiar

My 82 year old mother's reactions to many things in my life makes more sense now.  I asked her a few days ago if I had any surgeries when I was born. She said, "No. You were not born with anything extra. You only had an embilical cord." I didn't ask her if I was born with anything extra. I will try asking her again.

I'm going out on a limb here. Maybe mum has seen your lifelong search for your defining masculinity - the pain and heartache that has ensued, and the drive from somewhere deep within keeping you going to try to get some answers. Maybe she is saying that it is ok to be yourself. All of yourself.

The "how and why" questions for some are simple (I'm probably a DES son, at best second generation), and others more complex - and the start, middle and end are questions. There are a good bunch of FtM here, who will be able,to answer from a natal female perspective, and our intersex boards too will have a lot of answers that may help. Unfortunately practices vary from state to state, country to country and that inconsistency of itself means that many of our US family (and elsewhere), can have wildly different knowledge or experiences..

Welcome again, I'll go make some tea

Sno.