GCS with Dr Wittenberg April 2017, thanks for y'alls help!

[SailorMars1994]

Im so proud of you Sadie, you deserve everything great !!

[andreapdenver]

I'm waiting on my flight (arrived 2 hours early to minimize traffic and security hassles)

Dr Wittenberg and her office and my PCP's office have been amazing with helping handle last minute details, especially with multiple iterations of finding a way to have my prescriptions  for post op written in CA filled in MA.

My conversation with Heidi last week was surprisingly short but we'd really covered everything when we originally talked in October.

So now just have to get on the flight, catch a shuttle to Marin and try to sleep tonight (I'd knock wood if I weren't in an airport.

Hugs everyone, thanks again for everyone's thoughts and support.

Good luck!!



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[SailorMars1994]

Seeing as it is 2:12  eastern time now I suspect that the surgery is done. And on that note.... YAY!!! You made girl, you! on your own !!! I am so happy and proud of ya!, hope to hear from you soon and the whole experience!!

Yours truly- Ashley!

[SadieBlake]

In recovery, hapoy

[Devlyn]

Big hug!  I'm so happy for you!

Hugs, Devlyn

[andreapdenver]

Congrats!


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[SadieBlake]

In recovery, hapoy

[alex82]

Fabulous. Wishing you a wonderful recovery X

[Steph Eigen]

Congratulations!

[Sydney_NYC]

Congratulations

[I Am Jess]

Congrats heal quickly girl.

[SadieBlake]

My GF (was) about to pick me up from the 2 day stay at the recovery facility, most of the discharge paperwork has been done so rsn I'll be out of here. Predictably I tapered off of the Percocet yesterday, the pain isn't all that bad and I've taken some Tylenol to get myself down to sf. This post turned lomger as we arrived and got stuff dome.

Tylenol alone was sufficient to the task at hand and so I'm ensconced.at an airbnb in the Haight, dreaming of glass color incompatibilities --  not fun when combined with diarrhea.

[SadieBlake]

Well recovery hasn't been the easiest, I'm getting by and  things are improving steadily if slowly. Maybe I'll talk about that in a future post.

Returning to the original title of the thread (b4 I changed it)  Going through with gender confirmation surgery? As I'd feared and as Dena expressed I was having a wave of doubts even as the anesthesiologist was getting started, thinking

Omg in twenty seconds I'll be under and will be surrendering any control and they're about to take my testicles etc out

And then I felt a pair of hands holding my left hand, I knew before even looking over it was Heidi, she'd shook my hand when she had arrived.a and so I knew to expect cold hands.

I can't say how much difference that made. I'm told the procedure went well and took under 3-1/2 hours. And I'm glad in every way that I chose the doc I did for a lot of objective reasons.

Sttill that one little thing really put it over the top for me, the woman taking responsibility for such a big change in my life simply holding my hand as I went under made a huge difference in how it felt to be letting go of control.

[SadieBlake]

1st post op appointment was today :-)

Packing all removed, that was easy. Foley removed and I had no problem peeing :-) the results look great! Inner and outer labia seem well defined and my clitoris is shy but visible.

Heidi said she got 16cm of depth, dilation was easy and I was way past all the markings on the #1 soul source unit.

The only standing problem may be that at the deepest spot, the neovaginal wall isn't fully attached to the vaginal canal and so I'm supposed to dilate longer than they usually have ppl do. I have the ok to go to the blue dilator if that seems ok and I'm supposed to dilate up to a half hour where they usually want 10 minutes, this is to convince that skin at the full depth point to heal better.

Yay! Success (knocking wood)

[Steph Eigen]

I'll bet you can't wait to give this new sports car a drive...

[SadieBlake]

I'll bet you can't wait to give this new sports car a drive...

Haha Steph, :-)

Well the only real hint like that was when I woke up about 3 days ago from a nap and was just about to orgasm. I immediately drew back, terrified of having a contraction around the packing and bolster dressing.

Right now the whole area is numb at best, quite tender and sore at worst and so while I'm able to dilate ok and it's not extremely painful to dilate, any thought of getting sexual with the new layout really isn't doing a lot for me.

Most satisfying moment yet was from my gf --

"That sure looks like a vagina, I wasn't ok sure what to expect" as she helped me guide in the soul source purple dilator the first time I did it back "home" when the numbness was really throwing off my sense of where things were.

[SadieBlake]

Dilation

Because my doc wanted me stepping up to the blue ss dilator right away, I've been using for the 2nd and 3rd dilations daily, not wanting to be so aggressive on the one after sleeping overnight.

It's been fine, takes me just a few seconds to ease in the purple and I've been leaving it in place for 5-10 minutes before then bumping to blue. So far the blue just needs a little more time to get to full depth, maybe 30+ seconds. I don't have any feeling like I'm stretching until I get to the last inch of depth.

My gf is now always using feminine pronouns with me and it doesn't feel forced, I'm glad to have chosen to let this happen "organically".

[SadieBlake]

More progress. On Sunday I discovered the hard way that trying for a walk without Percocet was a bad idea (did a shade under 1/2 mile with a stop for coffee). I returned just feeling defeated, sobbing and sorely missing Cambridge, friends, home.

A second walk Sunday evening went better, 1 Percocet made a huge difference, I had dinner at a nice & cheap Chinese place and made it back feeling fine.

Yesterday (Mon) I had enough leftovers (mushroom risotto my gf had made in the place in Haight and mar po tofu from Sunday) to just spend the day in. I slept more than I'd have thought possible without even a walk, yes kinda bored but still quite able to sleep 12 hours and nearly slept thru the night, waking to pee only once. No painkillers and taking a healthy dose of ibuprofen to minimize swelling.

Today I'm feeling recharged a bit and about to go get breakfast in the center of Castro.

Yay for me! It's not easy but it's happening. I even read a bit of erotica -- 99.9% of the last 2 weeks I've felt 100% asexual due to fatigue and pain. I've had to just remember that it's gonna be worth it and I'm gonna be happy in ways that weren't possible before. Tickling my erotic brain is immediately happy for my sense of wellness.

[FinallyMichelle]

Wow, One steep at a time. Every day better than the last I hope.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us. You are going through the last part of transition I have left and I check every day hoping for an update.

Anyway, through the boredom or pain or whatever your day brings, I will be right here.

[SadieBlake]

Thanks Michelle! And yeah this is the first day I haven't slept during the day and I'm completely ->-bleeped-<-ged, about to fall asleep. I was able to walk at something more like a normal pace today, that's nice to feel and my appetite is back so I'm eating something like normal meals now. Need to get weighed at tomorrow's appointment, I think I must have dropped about 10 lbs.

So tired right now, g'nighters all