After visiting with my voice coach where I was able to maintain pitch and forward resonance in a normal conversation, I went shopping for groceries. The clerk called me Mam and I kind of was looking around to see if she might be talking to someone else. It had me wondering had I shrunk? Did I lose that much weight? Anyway it was nice. Only difference really is I didn't stuff my hair into a ball cap. Tomorrow I go for torture at the electrolysis. Can actually see bare spots on my face. Last bit of news is my estradiol dose was increased. Do things get bigger, rounder, fuller with the increase? Curious to know. Ok it was not the last thing. Tomorrow group session at Ingersoll Gender Center.
I want to make a public apology to Elodie for my brainless comments the other day. You know what happens when you assume. ass u me. I think she is fabulous and assumed she would be on cloud nine. I sometime forget. Like I have a bionic heart and I should be happy. I'm alive, I'm blessed, and I am peeved at what caused my heart problems. She has a legitimate complaint and I should not have been so judgemental. I truly sympathize as I too, started shutting people out to keep my secret, and have a hard time making friends. She is so nice and has documented her transition so well. I was looking at the result not the aftermath or the reason people are forced to transition by powers beyond their control. I hope she stays safe and finds the friendship and happiness she is looking for and deserves.
Anyway that is all from me today. Dawn
