Alexis,
Even through the unfortunate pain and welcome opioid delirium, I still remember the deep calm that was settling over my mind, not because Brassard had been smiling after my surgery, nor because he had said everything went great, but because I knew, even though heavy bandages and an ice pack were sitting on my pubis, I knew, I knew 'it' was gone!!!!

There were two very different aspects to my immediate post-op experience, first, in my mind, was the joy of coming to the end of that which
needed to go, and secondly, the beginning of that which
needed to BE...
Hang in there, girlfriend, the hardest part is over, every day going forward brings healing; physical, and emotional, and psychological...
Be proud of yourself, you took the leap, now you inherit the rewards...
Well done!!
((HUGS))
Missy