Why am I not like other women with swyer syndrome?

[dmj23]

I never can really relate with other people with swyer syndrome. For one my situation is very opposing to theirs like I had early puberty while most have delayed/no puberty without hormonal replacement. But with those within my own karyotype xxy I have physical symptoms similar to them but I can't help it but to identify as male. Not female. And like ive always felt like this was all a trap and that I had had a sex change etc.... I never could align with women. And mentally I have all the problems men with my karyotype have have (xxyl) with socializing and learning disabilities as a kid and my gender identity isn't any different from theirs yet my body is sry negative not positive. I dont get what went wrong with me? Why I'm not like other women with the same disorder? What's wrong with me?