The first of many hurdles before me... I know that I will, I've never been more motivated to lose the hundred ish pounds I'm overweight before making the decision that this is probably the way forward, outed myself only to a close female friend, who reacted by telling me she's been moving toward androgeny for years, and is a little disturbed by it (although she didn't say that directly I can tell that she is). Got the typical three groups, plus some internet friends I plan on coming out to, internet friends would be the easiest, but they interact with some work people as well, which I don't want to know until it's bleeding obvious... So that leaves real life friends and family...
Mom has already asked me point blank if I'm transgendered and said it would be fine, but I couldn't do it at that time anyway... I'm sure some of you would kill for that moment, lol...
Suppose the question is, how do you ask your internet friends if they can keep a secret from your real life friends without half spilling the beans there anyway? Of course I know they can and will and I'm just having anxiety, but knowing that doesn't make the anxiety go away, lmao
After thought, I should mention these are far closer than average internet friends, hence the desire to tell them.
The anxiety I'm fighting with around them is related to work and real life friends finding out, and the anxiety with those groups knowing is ironically that they'll see me as "less of a man", which ultimately is what I want anyway... Oi I need a therapist :p
