Welcome from a native Californian transplanted to Washington State. When I was your age, we did not have information such as the resources on this wonderful site. So we suffered in silence thinking cross dressing was the answer. While it did give me occasional peace for a few hours, I was forced to sneak around to do it. Sixty four years later the monsters under the bed have been exposed. After six months on HRT there is a certain serenity in knowing my feelings all these years were the real me trying to get out. Today, despite prejudice, hate and misunderstanding, I feel young people like yourself are going to change the world. Much as many of my friends from the 60's changed theirs. Fear is our biggest obstacle. Fear of addressing our own confusion, Fear of others finding out. Fear for the sake of fear. Fear after reading a book full of historical errors and omissions, that has been twisted to conform to others short sighted ideals. Now my biggest fear is finding a pair of size 15 women's boots. (it really sucks having a foot fetish. Current trends are not in our closet only what is available) of being pummeled in an alley. But the solution is just don't go into alley's and if trouble continues to follow you. Pull out the can of mace. Good Luck on your journey, may you too, find peace of mind.
Dawn
