I have been a bit preoccupied over the last month or so with sorting out my own HRT issues as well as contemplating my GCS. Approaching a week using the new E Gel and I am starting to feel a bit more like my old self. I have started my genital prep and organised my private insurance for GCS despite not really making any decision wether or not to proceed.
I don't really know what I expected but the whole "decision" around GCS wasn't or hasn't really been a single "decision", it seems to have been series of small decisions, it almost feels like I am now fulfilling a promise I made to myself a long time ago.
Tomorrow my insurance kicks in, so today I booked and paid a deposit to lock the date in, for my GCS with Dr Ives for November 28 2018 In Melbourne.
45 + years of contemplation, wishing it in every way I know how and now its going to be a reality. So it all still feels a little surreal.
My first reaction after putting the phone down was to burst into tears of joy and relief....I haven't really stopped smiling since.
The only thing standing between me and GCS is about 10kg which I put on after quitting smoking and starting HRT...I have the motivation now to lose it and am aiming at 90kgs which is 5 below the minimum my surgeon wants. The heathier and fitter I can be the better my recovery will be.
"Richard" my little friend your days are numbered....
