Monday UpdateLets get the housekeeping out of the way Only
127 days 13 hrs and 40 minutes BWCA? 
Out for my normal walk today and not really feeling like it much but got out there. I was aiming at 6ks this morning but when the run manager told me I had completed 6ks I was still a fair way off the car so I decided to keep going and eventually accomplishing another 8KM(5 mile or 10,000 steps). I certainly did not set out to do that amount but was enjoying the walk but then the challenge of 8ks was presented to me again and seemed like a worthy prize.
So home again for the all important weight in.
Quote from: ElizabethK on July 15, 2018, 06:43:23 PM
....So the Challenge is on...I need to lose 1.8 KGs (4 lb) this week to make it into the 96kg range....Ideally I would like to lose 2.8kg (6lb) as this would take me under my goal weight of 96 kgs but I think that is a bit of a big ask...I will update again this time next week.
I weighed in at
exactly 97kg so that is a
loss of 1.7kgs. 1 kg till my first goal weight
When I jumped on the scales which are Electronic they flickered from 96 - 97kgs for nearly 10 seconds before settling on 97 even. There can't be much in it as it was having a hard time deciding on a final weight. I had a dam fine crack at my goal and got far closer than I thought I would. I still feel happy with the result and now only 1 kg until I smash my surgery target.
As I have begun to lose the weight I have been thinking about why I am so overweight and what the final goal weight really means for me. The weight I have left to lose is mostly from my belly. I am fairly slim in all other departments apart from this. This weight has been a symptom of my unhappiness for a long time. I did not care what I ate or how I looked after my body because I never really liked it because it wasn't female. I didn't really care what happened to it externally and whilst I was drinking couldn't have cared less what happened to it internally either. All this led to the weight I am now...but for the first time in my life I do care about my body...I can have a feminie shape if I want it and I do want it. I was standing in front of the mirror trying on a black skirt I got from ASOS. After trying it on I loved the materiel and cut but it looked odd and the reason was so very obvious...my big fat mans belly!!! I hate it. I want it gone! It is one of the few remaining physical things belonging to "him" not Liz!! He has left and is no longer running the show but unfortunately he has left some baggage behind...no mind I can see to it for him
With all the weight I want to lose gone I will have a shape that I can work with...its at that point I will get my new wardrobe. My shape is odd at the moment I think (I am guessing)because any new fat deposits are going to where they would typically go for a female but all the old "male" deposits are mainly still there as well. I used to think that HRT moved the fat for you but my understanding is that it doesn't work like that unfortunately and HRT only deals with new fat storage. So by losing all this weight I am not only doing myself a huge favour health wise but I hope I am helping in the feminisation of my body.
Very slow week ahead without much on. I had a really busy day today cleaning the place for the week ahead and tomorrow will be a fair bit slower(thankfully)
. I am really looking forward to seeing a girl friend and doing some macro photography at some point during the week. I came very close to buying a new Lens but think I will wait to try out my friends as she so kindly offered to let me use her macro lens so I can compare before I purchase. It may well be worthwhile me waiting a little longer so I am able to purchase the right lens and not have to buy and additional one to achieve what I want. Well its getting late and I have been trying to do this update now for 2 hours so am just going to go ahead and post
Take care
LIz
