Quote from: Shy on April 15, 2017, 03:16:26 AM
Well that's an A+ with credits for your homework assignment Jeanette!
I can't believe how natural and content you look in your latest selfie. And damn girl, now I've got some serious nail envy.
Sadie
Quote from: Stone Magnum on April 15, 2017, 03:54:25 AM
You have some of the prettiest most beautifully shaped nails I've ever seen and you look great.
Also, it sounds like you did well even if you were nervous. Good job pushing yourself a bit past your comfort zone and taking that first major leap. Seriously, I'm proud of you.
Sadie and Stone thank you for the pats on the back. Yes I did have more difficulties going in this time knowing I was going to buy something and go threw the check out line. And thanks Stone for the tip about ID cards. I'll keep that in mind.
My nails have always been the envy of girls and women. I hate them short and file them rather than clip them. I usually only clip them when I break a couple. Then I clip them all and start over. They grow strong and fast and the length you see is only 3 - 4 weeks. I have been real tempted to visit a salon and have a manicure but then that fear thing shows up again. Another problem I have now id what looks like bubbles or rather broken ridges along wit unbroken ridges growing out from the nail bed to the tips. Even when I try to even them with the rest of the nail you can still see them through polish even. :-(
Quote from: ElizabethK on April 15, 2017, 03:39:33 AM
It takes great courage and to sit in your car for 5 minutes means it was touch and go there for awhile? You came through...so what if she clocked you...who cares...how do you feel about it now you are back...have we just made things harder for you?
As far as a grade goes you get a "Pass"
Coming out is going to seem like a walk in the park compared to what you just did. I commend you for sticking it out despite your uncomfortable feelings and not just bailing shows courage and determination for a start...
Liz
Thanks Liz,
Touch and go? Yes I would says so. I didn't say anything about how long it took me to get up and start the process to get out of the door this time. I was already dressed as I had been most of the day so when I decided I was going to do this it should not have taken long to go through the door, but it did. I finally go up and got out my makeup and put it on. even a light layering took me some time. then the earrings and wig. All ready right? No, I sat down and had to think about it again. There would be people there... I finally convinced myself there shouldn't be that many due to the hour. So now I grab my purse and my phone, put my wallet in, take my wallet out and get my Target card out ready for use and put my wallet back in. Take my wallet out and put the card back in it, replace the wallet in my purse again but open this time to make accessing the card easier and cut down the fumbling for it. *sigh*. Time out. Do I really want to do this? decide my lipstick is a bit much for Target so back into the bathroom to redo it.
Okay I am doing this. Get my coat and put it on. Check out the windows in the kitchen and bedroom to see if the coast is clear... ooops there's a car waiting outside. Come onnnnnnn already go away! It finally leaves. Peek out the door and put the key in to lock it quickly after me. Go, go, go, out the door , close and locked. To the pickup unlock the door. Damn the light comes on. Hurry inside and start the engine so the dome light gore out. Damn the headlights come on and reflect back off the wall illuminating me as well as the dome light did. Quickly put it in reverse and back out, put it into drive and out of the complex I go. Safe, safely out on the road and back into a known comfort zone. Just another lady driving down the road. Finally I pull into the Target parking lot and the fear has me in it's grasp once again.. elapse time from deciding to go and getting there? approximately an hour and a half.
See Liz? It was a piece of cake. no problem at all.
How do I feel about it? Relieved that it's over. Elated that I did it. Fearful that there will undoubtedly be a next time. You're right I had to gather up the courage to get out of my pickup and go inside. I almost didn't. There were so many people still going in and out. I don't like people in male mode and in girl mode it's thousands of times worse.
Quote from: KathyLauren on April 15, 2017, 06:30:48 AM
Way to go, Jeanette! You did it!! We are all proud of you.
I am glad to hear that your sister is getting out of hospital. Sorry that it means curtailing your freedom.
Thank you Kathy Yes I did, and thank you for my sister. Her being here will have a damping effect on what and when I can be me but it won't be forever. Hopefully it won't be for much longer as I do need to tell her, her brother is one of those weirdos. I'm not sure how she will take the news and I fear the domino effect it is likely to start.
Alas It will have to be done eventually.
On that note.
I sent a Facebook PM to my daughter last night trying to break the ice. So far no response. *sigh*
Hugs to all,
Jeanette