Quote from: JeanetteLW on April 21, 2017, 10:03:17 PM
Evening everyone,
Well, my sister Karen knows. The sister I live with. I talked to her tonight. She tells me that she is okay with it if it is what I want. Come to find out she knew of my wearing women's clothes.
It seems my Mom told her long ago. And that didn't bother her. She said that if I wanted her to know I would tell her some day. I didn't know my Mom knew for sure but I suspected as much as before we divorced my ex did a pretty good job at trying to sabotage me by telling everyone she could that I indulged in crossdressing. Even going so far as to come to my work and telling my supervisor.
Anyway, another one down and I should have a little more freedom to be me. Not full freedom as I still have nephews, a nephew's wife, an aunt and uncle who do not know as yet. Not to mention my neighbors that I don't really know. the maintenance man I see and talk to fairly regular and the manager for the apartment complex. So I still have exposure concerns. But at least I don't need to hide from my sister anymore.
(lump in throat and teary eyed atm)
Progress
Hugs,
Jeanette
It always strikes me how our deepest and darkest secrets are so often not very deep and certainly not secret and as for dark? Well admitting that you are a lovely human being who has fought a lifetime struggle against nature is not dark, well in my opinion at least.
I have read so many times on this Forum, people quoting friends and relatives saying to the new fledgeling "Oh I've known for ages, I was wondering when you were going to admit it."
The next comments that arise are so often along the lines of: "Your eyes are so much alive these days - you look so happy, it is so lovely to see."
You realise what fear has robbed from you and you realise the gift that acceptance has given you: the world is brighter and the path is clearer. Yes there is a long way ahead and no doubt tears and more fear, but it is a lesser fear and most of the tears will be those of Joy and Happiness.
Congratulations Jeanette
Now. It has taken me a few days to get my pain levels balanced, the same old story that you would know so well. Stitches, scars, severed nerves and tissue were having a fight to see who can dominate me, you would think by now my body would have realised that I don't give in and to just acquiesce to what I tell it to do.
With the in mind; when are we heading off for a make-over? Maybe the afternoon before dinner with a few girl friends?