Here I go again :-(

[Laurie]

I was/am a list maker. When I was seeing a therapist I would write down all my thoughts over the week so I could make the best use of the expensive sessions I  was paying for. I would do that for other transition related things as well to make sure I didn't forget anything and then I would check  them off when completed.

   Lol I have tried that Dena. It even sort of worked for a bit then I forgot the list and that was that. Such behavior is too organized and too much like making a plan which I've said before I am allergic to. My life is predicated on loosely controlled chaos and sketchy ideas the culminate in impromptu actions.
   The closest I have come to it is a spread sheet I made to track my  blood pressure and sugar readings along with what medications I take and when. I use a template that covers a single month and have kept it up for 3 years now.
Believe me that is a big accomplishment for me and about as organized as I get.

  Hugs,
   Laurie

[Devlyn]

   Lol I have tried that Dena. It even sort of worked for a bit then I forgot the list and that was that. Such behavior is too organized and too much like making a plan which I've said before I am allergic to. My life is predicated on loosely controlled chaos and sketchy ideas the culminate in impromptu actions.
   The closest I have come to it is a spread sheet I made to track my  blood pressure and sugar readings along with what medications I take and when. I use a template that covers a single month and have kept it up for 3 years now.
Believe me that is a big accomplishment for me and about as organized as I get.

  Hugs,
   Laurie

That's why I like you so much. 

Hugs, Devlyn

[Denni]

Laurie,

What I have found will help you with your cramps is to increase your water intake. I also was seeing an increase in leg cramps and increased my water intake, to three bottles a day and they have decreased significantly and also in intensity. Try that  and hopefully you will have the same results. Hugs

Denni

[Laurie]

Laurie,

What I have found will help you with your cramps is to increase your water intake. I also was seeing an increase in leg cramps and increased my water intake, to three bottles a day and they have decreased significantly and also in intensity. Try that  and hopefully you will have the same results. Hugs

Denni

  Thanks for the idea Denni. Unfortunately I have been increasing the water I drink mainly due to prepping for electrolysis and in an effort to fill the veins to make IV insertion and blood draws easier on in the lab techs. I have at least doubled but more likely tripled my water intake. I suppose a recent increase in ocular leakage could be having an impact on my H2O stockpiling.

Hugs,
   Laurie

[Laurie]

That's why I like you so much. 

Hugs, Devlyn

  Yeah Thank you Devyl. I like you too and wouldn't have you any other way than the funny talking citified ruffian you are. ((Hugs))

Laurie

[davina61]

If your loosing that much o2 from your ocular portals then it makes me think of cartoons , like fountains !!!!!!! Got to check my chicken curry back in a bit.XX

[Laurie]

I came across this while trying to sneak a peak into my daughter's and family's life. I makes me happy to see it.
  It is a Huffpost U.K. article. The baby girl is my grand daughter. She's famous!
But at the same time it makes me cry.

http://www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/entry/baby-multiple-health-conditions-infectious-laugh_uk_5992fdfae4b09071f69ca762?5di

Laurie

[davina61]

unfortunately no sound but what a cheery laugh , hopefully one day you will get to be grandma.

[Laurie]

unfortunately no sound but what a cheery laugh , hopefully one day you will get to be grandma.

  I had to turn on the sound in the video itself. Both children are my grand children Joshua in my youngest grand son and Evanna is the youngest grand daughter. There are 3 more not seen in the video.

Laurie

[Rayna]

Re cramps: if you're drinking a lot more water, you may be diluting your electrolytes. Gatorade includes sugar but it's the general direction you want. Taking magnesium helps some. Or just increase your salt intake a little.

Sorry couldn't find the original post. I can't keep up!

Love Randy

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[Laurie]

Re cramps: if you're drinking a lot more water, you may be diluting your electrolytes. Gatorade includes sugar but it's the general direction you want. Taking magnesium helps some. Or just increase your salt intake a little.

Sorry couldn't find the original post. I can't keep up!

Love Randy

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  Thanks for the suggestion Randy. Maybe I'll give a one of those drinks a try I'm sure there are alternative to gatorade. Not a fan of it. But Propel taste okay.

  How are you doing? Haven't been seeing much from you. I've been wondering.

Hugs,
   Laurie

[GrayKat]

I have been seeing a gender therapist for about nine months. I really have not found it helpful or insightful. But I need her to verify my condition so I can get surgeries. So I keep going.

[Laurie]

I have been seeing a gender therapist for about nine months. I really have not found it helpful or insightful. But I need her to verify my condition so I can get surgeries. So I keep going.

  Hi Graykat,

  Off hand I'd say you need another therapist. There are good therapist and not so good ones. If yours is one of the latter you may need to find one that you can work with better.
It's either that or you've not been open and honest with them so that they know what it is you need help with.
    Therapy takes two participants to be effective.

  If you see your therapist only as a means to get your letters, that is all they will be able to be to you.

Hugs,
   Laurie

[josie76]

I came across this while trying to sneak a peak into my daughter's and family's life. I makes me happy to see it.
  It is a Huffpost U.K. article. The baby girl is my grand daughter. She's famous!
But at the same time it makes me cry.

http://www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/entry/baby-multiple-health-conditions-infectious-laugh_uk_5992fdfae4b09071f69ca762?5di

Laurie

Laurie, I'm so sorry about your granddaughters health. These conditions are personal to me. My wife and I had to make that choice no expectant parent wants on our first pregnancy. At 20 weeks our little boy was diagnosed with spinabifida and hydrocephalus. We had gone to a specialist in the city university hospital for a follow-up exam. The doctor was the only person to tell it to us straight. He would never walk or have bowl or bladder function. He would need cranial surgeries as soon as he was born. Since his head was already a month size too big, he would need a C-section and there would be brain damage. We had less than 2 weeks to figure out what to do and make arrangements. We had to drive to Kansas to a doctor who delivered still borns. You may judge us but untill you are in that situation you simply do not know the agony. Dr Tiller and his partners ran the clinic there. There were two sides of the clinic. One just for parents with late term with babies with medical problems. We spent every day for a week there with eight other couples. Group therapy with the doctor himself right there. He required the hospital records before he took late term patients. There needed to be a medical need. He was a good man, doing what few will do today. The week process involved a shot to stop our sons heart, and several days to induce labor. After he was delivered, the next day we had a private moment with our boy. I still cry every time I remember this. I held my son in my hands. He was s so tiny. So fragile. A week later we received a package with his ashes in it and a tiny blue blanket. These we still have tucked away.
Other parents there that week had babies with skeletal deformaties, organs formed outside the body, and down syndrome. Mostly rare and untreatable conditions though. A few years later a right wing nut job killed Dr Tiller just outside church on Sunday morning. Another anti-abortion doctor murder.

[Laurie]

Laurie, I'm so sorry about your granddaughters health. These conditions are personal to me. My wife and I had to make that choice no expectant parent wants on our first pregnancy.

  Josie,

  My heart goes out to you. I have nothing but sympathy and respect for your decision. I'll not pass judgement on what was an agonizing ordeal for you and your wife. My condolences on your loss.
  Obviously my son in law and my daughter made a different decision and my grand daughter underwent 3 different operations within her first 24 hours in this world. she's had to undergo several more since. While mom and dad spent most of their days with Evanna in the 5 week following her arrival at her side in Seattle, I held down the home front taking care of my 4 other grand children 60 miles to the south. It was a rough time for all involved.
   Evanna requires special attention at home and all the family take an active part in her care. I won't go into the details except to say furniture, feeding and sleep are all affected and require special needs. She require a cpap machine at night to help her breathe when he brain and/or body forgets. Even with the machine, doctors tell  my daughter some day she'll just not wake. All this is sad and very hard on their family as you can imagine. But mom and dad are committed to giving her as full a life as they can while she's still with them. One has to love them for that. Of course I have others reasons to love them all.
   Though her story is sad, it is not why I cry. I cry because I am not a part of it any more. I haven't been since the day after I came out to my daughter and her husband. I have not seen any of my grand kids since as I do not feel welcome there now. I've removed them from social media not because they've done anything wrong there but to help me and I don't think sharing my current posts with them would help them or be welcome. I came across that story and post while sneaking a peek into their life. I should not have done it. Though a true joy to behold, watching it served to remind me of what I'm missing.
  The cost of what we do to be ourselves can be great indeed. My coming out only widened a long time wound in my daughter's relationship. A wound I've tried to close over the years only to seeing it is still raw and now infected. It's not all her doing nor is it all mine. But it is there. The door is closed between us again if it was ever really opened.

  I'm sorry Josie for straying off into my own troubles. I'm sorry you and your wife had to endure what you have and there is no doubt in my mind you live with your son's memory held lovingly in your heart.

  Hugs for your wife and you, Josie.

Laurie

[Jessica Lynne]

OMG...she's darling! If laughter truly is the best medicine, she'll be okay. What a little doll.

[Laurie]

OMG...she's darling! If laughter truly is the best medicine, she'll be okay. What a little doll.

  Thank you, Jess. Yes, Evanna is a doll and for the most part happy as can be.

Like the new avatar picture.

Hugs,
    Laurie

[Laurie]

Hi folks,

  I just received a PM from Maybebaby56. She wanted me to pass onto everyone that she is doing well after her GCS surgery with Dr. McGuinn, She just had her second follow up and got the green light to drive home to the DC area tomorrow. By the tone of her PM I deduce Terri is pleased with the results and very happy it is finally done. She said she is still working on believing she is now post op after waiting so long for it to happen. You sure can't blame the lady there.
  Per her request I pass on to you, "please give my best wishes to everyone"

  Anyway there is Terri's update for you all.

Hugs,
   Laurie

[Devlyn]

[HappyMoni]

Laurie,

What I have found will help you with your cramps is to increase your water intake. I also was seeing an increase in leg cramps and increased my water intake, to three bottles a day and they have decreased significantly and also in intensity. Try that  and hopefully you will have the same results. Hugs

Denni

Denni and Laurie talking! Hmmmm! Not sure whom to warn about whom! 

You could try having a bunch of surgeries and sit on the couch all summer like a lazy bum! No wait, that's my stic! At least my legs feel better.   

Moni