Here I go again :-(

[Laurie]

Laurie, you have taken so many both small and huge steps so quickly, I just have to applaud you for going where our Laurie has never gone before. Did you ever expect for any of us to speak of you as demonstrating a role model? Thank you for demonstrating such courage while living in the same fear that we have all known so well.

My only question is, now that you are wearing this new badge of authority, is it going to reign you in or give you more opportunities for hunting. It is called "Global",  are you now going to try to bag a Liz for your trophy wall? What ever you do, stay away from Cindy, she could eat you for lunch without breaking a glisten.

Keep it going sister,
Anne

  Thank you,Tia,
   
    Me a model? No I'm far too old for that.  Ohhhh sorry , "role" model, No Anne I ddo not think of myself as a role model. Gheeze, it hard enough to think of myself as a mod and to be honest I resisted it when first approached. I was not coerced into the job. Far from it. I rejected the notion several times giving a myriad of excuses. I gave it a lot of thought and spoke with a number of folks about it before making a decision during facial torture. (No, not related) I had been telling my electrologist about being offered the job when she asked be point blank "Are you going to do it?" it was then I realized my excuses were just that, excuses and most of them lame excuses at that. I suddenly realized I'd made my decision and told her,"Yes"
   I submitted my final resume and was allowed to stew on it a bit (after all I'd made them wait) until waking up yesterday to find out along with everyone else I had joined to team.
  I hope I am up to the task. It is going to be a challenge.

Hugs,
   Laurie

[p]

Ooooh look at miss fancy pants! Don't forget about us little people, girl! 

[Laurie]

Ooooh look at miss fancy pants! Don't forget about us little people, girl! 

Not a chance Patti. I'm sure you and many others here would never allow that.

Hugs,
    Laurie

[davina61]

Will have to watch what I post now, does that mean only Moni is allowed to get rude replies??

[Laurie]

Will have to watch what I post now, does that mean only Moni is allowed to get rude replies??

Hi Davina,

   No Moonni, does not have exclusive rights to that. Though I do need to be a bit more careful in my own replies. It just wouldn't do for a moderator to get moderated. At least it wouldn't do for me. I like it here.

Hugs,
   Laurie

[Laurie]

Hi folks,

  Alright this nonsense has got to come to a stop! It's really getting out of hand! I've just finished my labs, CT scan, Oncology, and gender Therapy session on August 14th. Then the next day , the 15th, I had an appointment with my GP. To add insult to injury, on the 18th I had facial torture!
And now, as of today I have new appointment for xrays followed by an appointment with a podiatrist. the 29th is another therapy session. Next month 3 more 1 hour sessions of facial torture on the 18th, 2oth, and the 26th.  The next day on the 27th is my initial voice training session!! If that's not enough my sister has her kidney freeze and biopsy in two days.
  I tell you it just too much! too many obligation on on specific days and at specific times! Yes, they are "scheduled" With so many "appointments" it is making spontaneity and loosely controlled chaos a;most impossible.
  My gosh these people are making me almost "plan" ahead. And we all know that is just not right! It's not how I do things! Nooooo, I can't do it! I cannot begin to understand how this could possibly have happened.

 

Hugs,
   Laurie

[LizK]

  My gosh these people are making me almost "plan" ahead. And we all know that is just not right! It's not how I do things!

Hugs,
   Laurie

Sorry Laurie I am going to be rude and use foul language

PLANNING

Sorry for being abusive but I can't help myself... I know, I know....but unfortunately you are going to have to do it to a certain extent...somehow I don't think any of the professionals will buy into your chaos theory...Sorry for my bad language but I feel someone should say it. 

[Laurie]

You're cruel, Liz
   

Hugs anyway,
  Laurie

[HappyMoni]

Hi Davina,

   No Moonni, does not have exclusive rights to that. Though I do need to be a bit more careful in my own replies. It just wouldn't do for a moderator to get moderated. At least it wouldn't do for me. I like it here.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Oh, I like a challenge. (Sounds of chops licking in the background.)
Moni

[Laurie]

Oh, I like a challenge. (Sounds of chops licking in the background.)
Moni

  You'll lose Flamonie.
  Laurie

[Laurie]

Hi folks,

  Today could be better.  Last night I got a FB message from my niece in Pennsylvania. She was upset and needed to express her support of me. What upset her was a FB discussion that has been going on recently with my sister in Colorado, my daughter, a few other relatives, various friends. I have not seen any of it since I do not follow this sister and have removed my daughter and family from my friends list.
   Anyway my niece brought to my attention that they were discussing transgender issues in general and myself in particular. It appears my sister and my daughter have disparaging views of transgender folk like us. Not only that but my daughter went on somewhat of a rant (my niece's words) specifically about me and was making accusations about me that I believe are undeserved. I confirmed this with my sister here and it sounds like it was more hurtful towards me than my niece was telling me (she did not go into detail)
  As you can imagine hearing this has hurt. 
  I felt I needed to address some of this with my daughter and I have done so by way of composing an email to her. I tried not to express anger as I am not angry. Rather I am hurt and disappointed that she would say such things as she apparently has in such a public forum where many of our mutual friend and relatives can see it. I'm not too happy with my sister in Colorado either. I feel they engaged in and were doing a good job of character assassination though I know none of the details they actually expressed.
   I  do not know how my daughter will react to my letter and wait with trepidation to find out. I fear it may only have caused more of a rift between us in spite of trying to word my concerns carefully. I fear there may be no hope of reconciliation or even a desire for one on her part.
  I want to cry. damn scratch the "want".
  Sorry, I needed to share my feelings.

[KathyLauren]

I am sorry that you have to go through this, Laurie.  I can only imagine the pain you must feel when those who should be your strongest supporters are instead the most hurtful.

[Anne Blake]

Hi Laurie,

I also want to express my sadness over you having to go through this. We all know how badly rejection and intentional maligning can hurt and how especially painful it can be from family. Not that it will ease the pain but this validates that blood alone does not make family and you know that your brothers and sisters here are there for you.

Please get hold of me if it will help.

Tia Anne

[Jessica Lynne]

Oftentimes, things that fall apart fall together again. Not always, but sometimes. Give it some time, Hon. And count to 1000 slowly before you say or send anything. My thoughts are with you. There's no easy answer for this stuff.   Jess

[davina61]

What can I say just you have my support.

[p]

Oh no! I can only imagine the pain that this must be causing you. I am so sorry that your daughter and sister felt the need to disparage you in a public setting like that. They must have their own unresolved issues/feelings about themselves to want to do something like that to you. I hope that I and others here can help you heal from this. All my love, Laurie!!!
Big hugs,
Patti

[HappyMoni]

Laurie,
   I am sorry also. It is not only hurtful and uncalled for on their part but cowardly as well. What kind of stupid religious beliefs have people doing something like this? Shame on them! Sorry, but you don't deserve this crap. Love you Girl.

Moni

[Laurie]

Thank you everyone.
 
  Yes, it hurts and I cry some, but I think I'm ok. I don't need to go for a drive yet. lol

Hugs,
   Laurie

[steph2.0]

Thank you everyone.
 
  Yes, it hurts and I cry some, but I think I'm ok. I don't need to go for a drive yet. lol

Hugs,
   Laurie

Laurie,

You can't pick your relatives. You can pick your friends, and sometimes they can be better family than blood.

Even better is when people pick you and make you family, not because they're related to you, but just because they value the great person you are. That's what we've all done here for you.

I'm glad to hear you're going to be OK, but know that we all love you and will help you get through the rough spots, just as you help everyone else here.

Hugs,

Stephanie

[Laurie]

Even better is when people pick you and make you family, not because they're related to you, but just because they value the great person you are. That's what we've all done here for you.

I'm glad to hear you're going to be OK, but know that we all love you and will help you get through the rough spots,

Hugs,

Stephanie

  Thanks Stephanie,

Those parts of what you said that I've highlighted is what keeps me coming here. Like everyone else here I have my ups and downs and can use the support we can get from the good people here like yourself and everyone else that steps up when needed.

Laurie