If I could wake up as "the finished product" tomorrow I would, and deal with the consequences then, all at once. Dealing with a slow trickle of small problems that seem to come one after the other sounds like a huge pain, the comfort of everyone knowing who I am now vs getting them to understand that even though I'll be an entirely different person in many respects I'm still the same person, they just didn't know me, know me...
Yeah, I think about it even though I've barely taken the first steps, my mom even though I told her that I'm transgender, I don't think it clicked with her that I'm going to turn myself into her second daughter, she knows I have an appointment with a psychologist, but probably not that I'm going to tell them that I'm ready, and want to pursue HRT and other services. I know whatever happens she won't disown me or anything... It's work I'm worried about, my insurance, income currently comes from just one place. They're pretty proud of not having laid anyone off in the company's history, but I wonder if that's just because they found some ridiculous reason to fire them instead.
