1st shot coming up

[Laylayd06]

So... I have known I am trans since I was 3. The first time I went to a gender therapist was at 3... I am now 30 and have been seeing a therapist to help me accept transitioning... This whole time I have been excited and I still am, but I am nervous too. My first shot is on thursday and I can feel myself panicking over this. Is that normal? Did anyone else feel nervous to begin their transition? I keep telling myself that I am finally going to be myself, but the other part is so aware of how different I am going to be to other people, and that is hard for me. I also don't want to slow the process because ever since I have come out I have felt happier (a year ago I was suicidal). Slowing the process would put me back their... is this just a case of cold feet?

[Jacqueline]

Welcome to the site.

I think most of us were nervous when we started. I think it might be a little concerning if one were not. I am glad to hear you have a therapist working with you. I think the way you explained it is correct. The worry and concern is more about how other's may view you as different. If you are like me, you also heard stories from others on family, friends and co-worker's reactions. We are all different and every transition is different.

HRT is not a miracle. We still need help and support. I think especially from therapists. I hit a spot into my HRT(4-5 months in) where I became very depressed again and nearly suicidal as well. However, the hormones I am using are kind of the opposite from yours; and as I said, everyone reacts differently.

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[DemonRaven]

I am curious is the shot given in the vein or the muscle?

[TransAm]

I am curious is the shot given in the vein or the muscle?

T shots go either in the muscle or subcutaneous fat tissue.

[DemonRaven]

T shots go either in the muscle or subcutaneous fat tissue.

Thanks that makes my decision on what form to take, When I finally get into see about taking it, easier  because I did not want to use the shot if it meant putting it into a vein.

[macabremitch]

congrats and yes i was very nervous and excited for my first shot, im almost 5 months and still get butterfly's every week on shot day. i still ponder and worry if the choices i made are right i still get scared of my future and what's to come but as time goes on and my changes slowly appear i am reassured and in bliss of my body. you will be fine!