My FFS journey , from Dr cardenas, to Dr zukowski

[Cindy]

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[lovelessheart]

Update : can't believe my surgery is next week !! Omg.. I have another consultation with the Dr this week. If anyone is in the Chicago area, pm maybe we can meet up . I'm starting to have dreams now that it's getting closer. Dreams about my surgery . Kinda scary to think about it lol .

Anyway I'll updating more often as time winds down.

[jentay1367]

Good luck Sweetie. You're in good hands. Really good hands..I'm resting up now from my procedures two weeks ago. Do me a favor and tell Z and the awesome  staff that Lisa says, "Hello and thank you"! You are going to be amazed!!

[lovelessheart]

Good luck Sweetie. You're in good hands. Really good hands..I'm resting up now from my procedures two weeks ago. Do me a favor and tell Z and the awesome  staff that Lisa says, "Hello and thank you"! You are going to be amazed!!

Omggggg I'm so ready !! I just can't wait until it's over ! How is your healing coming along ?? And I sure will!

[jentay1367]

Omggggg I'm so ready !! I just can't wait until it's over ! How is your healing coming along ?? And I sure will!

L.O.L......... I know, it will be here before you know it. Healing as scheduled. They stay with you and follow up, follow up, follow up... they're a well oiled machine and so professional. I'd wish you luck, but with them you don't need it. It'll be over before you know it and I'm sure you'll be pleased.

[lovelessheart]

L.O.L......... I know, it will be here before you know it. Healing as scheduled. They stay with you and follow up, follow up, follow up... they're a well oiled machine and so professional. I'd wish you luck, but with them you don't need it. It'll be over before you know it and I'm sure you'll be pleased.

One thing g I'm worried about is the massages.. is it THAT bad

[Maybebaby56]

If you're really into pain, no.

I hated doing it, so I slacked off.  Dr. Zukowski could tell, too.  That guy has such an eagle eye. The pics I sent you by PM were from all the follow-up sets you have to send him (L/R profile, L/R 45-degree profile, and frontal).  I dreaded the phone conferences because I knew I was going to get another lecture.

~Terri

[jentay1367]

LOL....Terri to the rescue. She kept me sane while I prepared and while I went through my odyssey. She's a blessing to know and have around.  Consider yourself blessed she's here, Loveless! She's my age but she's my fairy trans mother...lol.

And yes, they hurt......and yes, they're a pain in the ass. And yes you will want to blow it off. The only thing I like about em' is it's an excuse to take off the dreaded contraption I refer to as the face diaper. You will have a nervous breakdown trying to figure out how to put it on. But you'll get it. All these things will pass and you'll be a "Z-Girl".  Look at Terri, a sense of calm should come over you. Hang on tight....the ride is about to begin!

[lovelessheart]

Update :

For the past few nights I have been feeling down. Surgery is no fun. A lot of outsiders think that surgery should be exciting... saving up/ going into debt is no fun . I'm so tired of having surgeries . It's more of a need for me. It breaks my heart to know that I have to go through this. Yes, it's exciting to know there is peace waiting for me on the otherside..but it's the fact I have to go through hell to get there. I've been up all night making sure my money is good to go . All this money. I'd rather out towards a business... School...house...but I'm putting it towards being me and this disphoria. I had my first surgery at 20 or 21... And I travel out of the country both times, alone. I will be going alone again . . If only there was a pill to invest into to make everything right . There's a lot of misconceptions about ffs and srs. ITS not a playground . It's not like picking your favorite candy in a candy store. It's really stressful, time consuming, and sometimes even depressing. My time is ticking down . Next week is the week..and all I want to do is to skip 3 months from now.

PS... If anyone is in the Chicago area..I'd love to have your company as I'm going alone....like every surgery.

[Maybebaby56]

I know exactly how you feel, sweetie.  I did my FFS alone, although I did have someone there for me for part of the recovery.  SRS will be another solo trip, but a three-hour drive, not an international flight! Afterward, my best friend will fly up from Florida and help me through recovery. I wish I could be there to help you.

No, these procedures are not fun.  People ask, "Aren't you excited?" when I tell them, but "excited" definitely isn't the right word.  I dread the post-op recovery, weeks of pain, and trying to schedule life around recovery. I just want this damn thing over with, and to be looking back on the whole thing.

Blessings to you,

Terri

[lovelessheart]

I know exactly how you feel, sweetie.  I did my FFS alone, although I did have someone there for me for part of the recovery.  SRS will be another solo trip, but a three-hour drive, not an international flight! Afterward, my best friend will fly up from Florida and help me through recovery. I wish I could be there to help you.

No, these procedures are not fun.  People ask, "Aren't you excited?" when I tell them, but "excited" definitely isn't the right word.  I dread the post-op recovery, weeks of pain, and trying to schedule life around recovery. I just want this damn thing over with, and to be looking back on the whole thing.

Blessings to you,

Terri

Exactly !!! None of this has ever been fun for me. People always say "I couldn't save up as much money as you, I would have been spent it ". I tell then it's a matter of life or death . They wouldn't understand. I'm happy you have people that are going to be there with you at some point during your recovery. When I went for srs, I did meet a wonderful lady there who was having her surgery, she pretty much helped comfort me. I'm hear someone is going to be there getting their surgery done as well a few days after me. I'm always going first !! I hope that isn't a   a badluck kind of thing. Seems like that maybe why they all failed. *Sighs*... i HAVE NEVER been this frantic about surgery. Maybe it's because I'm getting so much done . It may be the most important one yet. Srs, I wish I had of waited and did full ffs first. I realized after, you don't go around having sex with everybody , but you go around the world and people see you.

Anyway.everything will be fine... I'm waiting on Dr. To call me as I type this. Xoxo

[jentay1367]

Exactly !!! None of this has ever been fun for me. People always say "I couldn't save up as much money as you, I would have been spent it ". I tell then it's a matter of life or death . They wouldn't understand. I'm happy you have people that are going to be there with you at some point during your recovery. When I went for srs, I did meet a wonderful lady there who was having her surgery, she pretty much helped comfort me. I'm hear someone is going to be there getting their surgery done as well a few days after me. I'm always going first !! I hope that isn't a   a badluck kind of thing. Seems like that maybe why they all failed. *Sighs*... i HAVE NEVER been this frantic about surgery. Maybe it's because I'm getting so much done . It may be the most important one yet. Srs, I wish I had of waited and did full ffs first. I realized after, you don't go around having sex with everybody , but you go around the world and people see you.

Anyway.everything will be fine... I'm waiting on Dr. To call me as I type this. Xoxo

The Dr. does what he's doing to you 3-4 times a week. Practice makes perfect. You're not going first...more like 3567th...lol  Someone before you was 3566th. Follow Cole's instructions and do whatthe Dr. says and it will be okay.

[Angieisalone]

If you're really into pain, no.

I hated doing it, so I slacked off.  Dr. Zukowski could tell, too.  That guy has such an eagle eye. The pics I sent you by PM were from all the follow-up sets you have to send him (L/R profile, L/R 45-degree profile, and frontal).  I dreaded the phone conferences because I knew I was going to get another lecture.

~Terri

In every phone conversation I had with him, he would try to act superior, but I would have to constantly shut him down. For example, he tried to tell me that my voice would go back to normal
but it never did.

[lovelessheart]

In every phone conversation I had with him, he would try to act superior, but I would have to constantly shut him down. For example, he tried to tell me that my voice would go back to normal
but it never did.

Hi there. Maybe you should make a separate thread , as this is mine so I can document MY, experience

Best wishes.

[lovelessheart]

Hi all!!!

Today is the day I take off to Chicago. I've got my things packed ..medications filled.. and all the extra over the counter meds as well . I think I spent about 100 on all medicines ..if not more. This has got to be the most emotional surgery I've had... I can't explain it... But I cried when I hugged my mom as she left for work. I cried yesterday to my sister ! Soooooemotional .not to say I'm not happy.. but I'm having a lot done. I'm going alone...plussssss ill be under for about 9 to 10 hours. It's so sad . I know as I get dropped off the airport im gonna cry again . *Sighs*


I'm going to try update with pictures or videos like I did for srs . I will update when I arrive with more details .

[lovelessheart]

Update:::

I made it to Chicago safety yesterday.
Its always stressful going through airports . I guess I have some form of social anxiety with being around so many people. I'm a small town girl, so I guess that's what to expect. On the flight to Chicago, while checking my bags in, I had to unexpectedly pay 25 dollars for baggage check ?? I'm not quite sure if I ever had to pay for that before. I already speculated that it was gonna be a hell of a day . I waited about 15 minutes and boarded the flight to Chicago. I had a window seat . I was so uncomfortable .. I felt like I was being squished . Thank God it was only an hour flight . Once landed in Chicago, I go to claims and pick up my bags. I call Nadia, Dr zukowski taxi recommendation. Nadia has a very blunt personality. For me , she was easy to talk to once I figured out her personality traits. Now, some people may be put off if they don't know how to retrieve such personality..but trust me, she means well. She actually informed me she had a facelift with Dr z a few months. She looked good too. Now , as she dropped me off.. from the airport to my hotel , she told me the cost was 40!!!!!! I mean... To me... That's so freaking much. Maybe because I'm not a true city girl, I don't know. But I could have sworn I was told the cab fair will only range up to 25. As you see, this can get really pricey . Uhh can I walk to surgery ?? Lol jk . Anywho, I check in fine. No issues. However, they don't tell you their WiFi doesn't work for phones. And I'm actually pissed off by this because if this wasn't the case, I would have gotten a hotel somewhere else. Such an inconvience. I will call the manager later today .if anyone knows a way to get connected please let me know. Also I have pictures I'll upload of the hotel later on . Surgery is tomorrow!!

[jentay1367]

Well.......You're there! That's something. Are you at the Staybridge?

[lovelessheart]

Well.......You're there! That's something. Are you at the Staybridge?

Yes I am! Lol .

[jentay1367]

Go to bed!!! Lol

[jentay1367]

5 AM rolls around fast!!!