Hey, so... I suffer from frequent dissociation and anxiety. I have been diagnosed with PTSD, not that long ago. I feel it is the HRT which has allowed me to access long-buried feelings and memories (which arise without any rhyme or reason from what I can tell), letting me return to the very emotional person I was in childhood. This said, it is becoming a real issue of late, so frequent that it is affecting my day to day living in an often dramatic way. I have a comfort item, Duffy bear from Walt Disney World, who helps me during the powerful occasions of anxiety and dissociation.
The true problem is that I seem to somehow end up feeling either suicidal or have strong urges to self-harm when things become unbearable. Secondly, while in the throes of these episodes rational ability or cognitive functioning flies out the window, leaving me helpless, alone, and desperate. Also, I tend to feel like I am a young child as well, around the age of five I think. I have periods of 'lost time', have had auditory hallucinations, and often experience a 'floating' sensation and/or a feeling like I am watching myself go through the motions of living.
