And I always hated therapists

[Sarah Louise]

I never trusted therapists before, I always felt they had their own agenda and didn't really care about you.

I guess I just went to the wrong people.

I just finished another session, I really enjoy the time and wish it was longer.

I really surprised myself today, I opened up more than normal and when I realized our time was up, I immediately went into a depression and a feeling of dispair and started crying.

She stayed with me and helped me to overcome this and get back in control before I left.

I just felt like I still needed to talk, that is why I posted this.  Dumb isn't it.

Sarah L.

[DawnL]

I never trusted therapists before, I always felt they had their own agenda and didn't really care about you.  I guess I just went to the wrong people.

I just felt like I still needed to talk, that is why I posted this.  Dumb isn't it.

Not dumb.  I've been to a number of bad therapists and I couldn't really open up to them.  It's amazing when you find someone you can really talk to and trust.  Your feelings are entirely normal.

Dawn

[HelenW]

Well, Sarah Louise, if getting a drink of water when you're thirsty is dumb then, well, then it's dumb.  But I think it isn't.  Using Susan's to get that stuff off your chest is why we're here - sometimes to talk, often to listen and learn, and once in a while to contribute in our own humble way.

I haven't had much experience with therapists (maybe a good thing, maybe not?) and I hope that I've found one as good as yours seems to be.  My second appointment (I sent him a partial autobiography yesterday) will be on Tuesday.  I'm frightened and enthusiastic at the same time.

^***HUGS*** Helen

[stephanie_craxford]

Needing to talk is never dumb sweetie.  We've all needed to talk to someone whether it is with a close friend, parents, children, doctors, therapists, and for some religious leaders.  To echo Dawn, when you find the one who finally listens and understands it can be a huge emotional breakthrough, so your reactions were quite normal.

Steph

[Sarah Louise]

Helen, I had to do the autobiography a while back, it was a rough and not overly pleasant project.  I don't ever want to relive some of the things that happened.

Sarah L.

[HelenW]

You got that right!  Me too!

My poor SO had to deal with me being angry and depressed (again!  ) for things that happened 31 years ago (or more).  Not fair for her but I was all wrapped up in it, if you know what I mean.

I hope the next part goes easier or, if I'm lucky, the therapist will be so bored and/or convinced of my disphoria I won't have to write any more!

Here's hopin'
helen

[Sarah Louise]

My therapist already wrote the letter for hormones (I had been self medicating, NOT ADVISED, BUT, I also had told my medical doctor what I was taking so she could be monitoring my blood levels), now I can officially get a written prescription.

Next will be the letter for surgery.

Sarah L.

[Shelley]

Hi Sarah Louise,

Susan's is a place where you can let it all out as it were. It does sound like you've come to a place in your life where you needed to be. So congratualtions. I am also pleased to hear that you are "legal".

Shelley