I never trusted therapists before, I always felt they had their own agenda and didn't really care about you.

I guess I just went to the wrong people.

I just finished another session, I really enjoy the time and wish it was longer.

I really surprised myself today, I opened up more than normal and when I realized our time was up, I immediately went into a depression and a feeling of dispair and started crying.

She stayed with me and helped me to overcome this and get back in control before I left.

I just felt like I still needed to talk, that is why I posted this.  Dumb isn't it.

Sarah L.

Quote from: Sarah Louise on January 26, 2006, 01:19:58 PM
I never trusted therapists before, I always felt they had their own agenda and didn't really care about you.  I guess I just went to the wrong people.

I just felt like I still needed to talk, that is why I posted this.  Dumb isn't it.

Not dumb.  I've been to a number of bad therapists and I couldn't really open up to them.  It's amazing when you find someone you can really talk to and trust.  Your feelings are entirely normal.

Dawn

Well, Sarah Louise, if getting a drink of water when you're thirsty is dumb then, well, then it's dumb.  But I think it isn't.  Using Susan's to get that stuff off your chest is why we're here - sometimes to talk, often to listen and learn, and once in a while to contribute in our own humble way.

I haven't had much experience with therapists (maybe a good thing, maybe not?) and I hope that I've found one as good as yours seems to be.  My second appointment (I sent him a partial autobiography yesterday) will be on Tuesday.  I'm frightened and enthusiastic at the same time.

^***HUGS*** Helen

Needing to talk is never dumb sweetie.  We've all needed to talk to someone whether it is with a close friend, parents, children, doctors, therapists, and for some religious leaders.  To echo Dawn, when you find the one who finally listens and understands it can be a huge emotional breakthrough, so your reactions were quite normal.

Steph

Helen, I had to do the autobiography a while back, it was a rough and not overly pleasant project.  I don't ever want to relive some of the things that happened.

Sarah L.

You got that right!  Me too!

My poor SO had to deal with me being angry and depressed (again!  ) for things that happened 31 years ago (or more).  Not fair for her but I was all wrapped up in it, if you know what I mean.

I hope the next part goes easier or, if I'm lucky, the therapist will be so bored and/or convinced of my disphoria I won't have to write any more!

Here's hopin'
helen

My therapist already wrote the letter for hormones (I had been self medicating, NOT ADVISED, BUT, I also had told my medical doctor what I was taking so she could be monitoring my blood levels), now I can officially get a written prescription.

Next will be the letter for surgery.

Sarah L.

Hi Sarah Louise,

Susan's is a place where you can let it all out as it were. It does sound like you've come to a place in your life where you needed to be. So congratualtions. I am also pleased to hear that you are "legal".

Shelley