Hi All!
I am curious to get your opinions on this matter.
I am not open, nobody in my life knows that I am transgender. I also still live at home and when my parents go on holiday (and very occasionally when I know that I definitely have the house to myself) I live as I truly should be. It is amazing, I have been living as a woman for days, all doors and blinds shut. I never dance because i automatically dance in a feminine manner; I was chopping vegetables with some music on in the kitchen and 'Suddenly I See' came on, I just started dancing, quite irresponsible considering that I had a rather large knife in my hand. Anyway, I felt so free, genuinely happy. For those brief few moments, the world was ok.
Knowing that this is going to end soon, it breaks my heart. I don't want it to end. I don't want to go back to the facade. I sometimes think that it would be best to never live as I want to when I get the chance, so that I don't suffer these 'crashes' when it has to stop.
Has anybody had this before? How did you deal with it?
Kay
