Salon hunting

[Laurie]

Well unbeknown to me my medical records have now been officially changed to read Mx. It popped up on an appointment slip for my docs.
I never asked for a change, but It did make me feel better somehow. I know I'm in the halfway house holding pen just now so It was nice for the acknowledgement
Little things like this calm the squirrels, I warmed to it instantly as another step in my journey. Next stop Miss

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

  Don't you go missing that next stop Hun. It's a good one.

Hugs for you Sadie,
   Laurie

[Northern Star Girl]

Well unbeknown to me my medical records have now been officially changed to read Mx. It popped up on an appointment slip for my docs.
I never asked for a change, but It did make me feel better somehow. I know I'm in the halfway house holding pen just now so It was nice for the acknowledgement
Little things like this calm the squirrels, I warmed to it instantly as another step in my journey. Next stop Miss

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

@ Sadie:   Hmmm, I have never heard of "Mx"  here in the USA.  Perhaps that is a medical records thing for obviously transitioning patients?  ... or maybe a UK thing?   

When I finally started presenting myself as more female at my doctor's office I was seeing things like Ms.  or  Miss on my records and my communication from the doctor's office.

Either way Sadie....  that is a nice change in recognition for you....  your journey is getting better and better.   Please keep your updates coming.  I enjoy reading about your experiences.
Danielle

[Shy]

  Don't you go missing that next stop Hun. It's a good one.

Hugs for you Sadie,
   Laurie

Got me ticket, just stuck at the station 

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

[Shy]

@ Sadie:   Hmmm, I have never heard of "Mx"  here in the USA.  Perhaps that is a medical records thing for obviously transitioning patients?  ... or maybe a UK thing?   

When I finally started presenting myself as more female at my doctor's office I was seeing things like Ms.  or  Miss on my records and my communication from the doctor's office.

Either way Sadie....  that is a nice change in recognition for you....  your journey is getting better and better.   Please keep your updates coming.  I enjoy reading about your experiences.
Danielle

Yes, here in the U.K. Mx is for non-binary I think, of which I'm not, but it's better than Mr for sure.
I've talked to my doc. about pronouns in the past but he can't do anything about my old name until it's officially changed by deedpol. There are notes for my preferred name and I am addressed as Sadie within the surgery.
I guess Mx is being used as a go between, I'll mention it again when I see him next.

Hope you are well

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

[davina61]

Good isn't it, had a letter from estate agents to say about work on flats and it was addressed to Ms D B---------, that's from the woman that did my flat inspection. To book into the Docs they have an automated  reception , you have a choice between male and female date of birth and first letter of surname . Must have a word with the doc tomorrow when I see her in the morning!!!!!!

[Shy]

Good isn't it, had a letter from estate agents to say about work on flats and it was addressed to Ms D B---------, that's from the woman that did my flat inspection. To book into the Docs they have an automated  reception , you have a choice between male and female date of birth and first letter of surname . Must have a word with the doc tomorrow when I see her in the morning!!!!!!

It is indeed good Davina It's strange getting used to things being closer to what they should be instead of feeling disjointed and displaced. It's a new feeling for me that I never expected.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

[davina61]

Got my new manager to call me Davina , taken me a while to get used to it.

[Shy]

Got my new manager to call me Davina , taken me a while to get used to it.

Great news Davina I found it strange at first when people around me started calling me Sadie, not in a bad way, just wasn't used to it. I don't even notice now.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie.

[Northern Star Girl]

Got my new manager to call me Davina , taken me a while to get used to it.

@ Davina:  YES, that is a pivotal moment in our transition journey....  when they started calling my by my female name without any prompting that was a stellar moment!
Danielle

[Shy]

Well it's been quite a dysphoric week for me, maybe the consequence of living full time without any access to treatment, who knows. My day will come for sure, but it's hard to read about everyones progress from a distance sometimes.

On the plus side I've made contact with the local Aspergers society. They have a monthly women's group that I'll get involved with I think there is a big difference between living full time anonymously vs being actively involved with others in my community. So I'm getting out there, hopefully that will help a little with the dysphoria and maybe make some new friends along the way.

A little over a year ago I'd hardly leave the house, so it's all progress . Although I'm still the same person, the way I experience life has profoundly changed. I'm not afraid of my own shadow anymore, I don't stoop or cower at my reflection. I'm just unashamedly me, and that's o.k. Just need to sort the physical changes, but that's out of my hands for now.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

[Cindy]

Hi Hon,

Just to let you know that I am still looking in on you and always ready with a hug

[Shy]

Hi Hon,

Just to let you know that I am still looking in on you and always ready with a hug

Aw thanks Cindy. You're a good girl.

I hope you are doing well, and with a hug we can encompass the world, being on opposite sides of it

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

[Laurie]

Hi Sadie,

  I for one think you are doing pretty good for yourself Hun. Getting out as you have been is a pretty good step for you. As you said you aren't cowering or hiding from yourself. You are putting yourself out there and making progress in spite of the NHS systems horrible delays.
  Like Cindy told you I am always around somewhere and have a good shoulder for you to lean on. Plus lots of hugs when you need them.

(((Hug)))

  Laurie

[LizK]

Well it's been quite a dysphoric week for me, maybe the consequence of living full time without any access to treatment, who knows. My day will come for sure, but it's hard to read about everyones progress from a distance sometimes.

On the plus side I've made contact with the local Aspergers society. They have a monthly women's group that I'll get involved with I think there is a big difference between living full time anonymously vs being actively involved with others in my community. So I'm getting out there, hopefully that will help a little with the dysphoria and maybe make some new friends along the way.

A little over a year ago I'd hardly leave the house, so it's all progress . Although I'm still the same person, the way I experience life has profoundly changed. I'm not afraid of my own shadow anymore, I don't stoop or cower at my reflection. I'm just unashamedly me, and that's o.k. Just need to sort the physical changes, but that's out of my hands for now.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Sadie that is great news...I think you have made great progress(looking from the outside in). Being the best you that you can be is a pretty darn hard task but it would seem you are all over it. I hope the women's meetings go really well for you. I understand that wanting to isolate congrats on not doing that.

Take care

Liz

[davina61]

Managed to down load the drag bike pics

[Shy]

Hi Sadie,

  I for one think you are doing pretty good for yourself Hun. Getting out as you have been is a pretty good step for you. As you said you aren't cowering or hiding from yourself. You are putting yourself out there and making progress in spite of the NHS systems horrible delays.
  Like Cindy told you I am always around somewhere and have a good shoulder for you to lean on. Plus lots of hugs when you need them.

(((Hug)))

  Laurie

Thanks Laurie 

My plan of action is to just get on with stuff. When I make up my mind about something I try not to think about it too much and just get on with it. Not sure how sensible that is but it seems to work for me....mostly.

Thanks for your kind offer but really it's the physical stuff that is out of my hands that needs to be sorted.
I don't mind the NHS wait, they are under so much pressure. The way I see it is that the longer I have to wait the more people in front of me have been treated and have found some peace. My day will come

Enjoy the rest of your trip,

peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

[Shy]

Sadie that is great news...I think you have made great progress(looking from the outside in). Being the best you that you can be is a pretty darn hard task but it would seem you are all over it. I hope the women's meetings go really well for you. I understand that wanting to isolate congrats on not doing that.

Take care

Liz

Thanks Liz,

I am a little anxious about the women's group, I just hope they accept me into the fold. It will be my first real group experience outside of the TG world.

As far as hiding away goes I think I reached a point where it just wasn't an option anymore.  The last thing I want is to transition and for things to stay exactly the same only with added boobs.

Have a lovely day whatever you get up to, I know things are tough for you just now, you are in my thoughts

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

[Shy]

Managed to down load the drag bike pics

That looks awesome Davina, only I think the bike will need added skis if things carry on the way they are.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

[Shy]

Time for weekly update

It's been a very thoughtful week for me as it goes. For some reason I've spent a lot of time with childhood memories, piecing together the whys and wherefores. I still had the same feelings all them years ago as I do now, I was trans then and I'm trans now. Sounds silly when put so simply, but here I am typing away searching for that epiphany, that elusive missing piece that will make sense of everything.

Strange thing is that I'm starting to feel better about myself and I'm not really sure what to do about it. The lie is...'oh, I'm feeling better maybe I'm not so trans after all', the reality is 'I'm feeling better because I've embraced who I am and declared it to the world!!!'. I guess I'm scared of screwing things up and loosing myself again, I can be my own worst enemy sometimes. So I'm musing and massaging the grey matter, waiting for that elusive synapse to fire that lights up the path and sends me happily on my way.

Sorry for the ramble of a post, but it's where my headspace is as of now. It's just me working through stuff, writing down my thoughts always helps. I'm doing well

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

[davina61]

Its good to ramble (helps me) as like me you have no one to unload on as such. As to the feeling the same as when younger, yes but didn't know what it was then. You will get there one day, hopefully sooner than later.