Hi Im back from hospital where I was schizophrenic for a while! I think choosing my name was making me hear voices! Im serious it was awful! I think I can still hear some while Im writing this. I stopped taking my medication because it didnt seem to help with the hallucinations whether auditory or visual.
Also I have a problem with Star Wars and I once had a Tie Fighter fly over me while I was lying down staring at the clouds one day!
Anyway I dream of becoming a beautiful Transexual Jedi one day and starting up the new order.
At the moment I must obey the Sith Lord Susan and obey her rules.
I know that the Jedi Spirit in her will be rekindled one day and if I can confront her on this I hope Im not getting Delusional.
I should stop!
Anyway I have been through a lot as Natalie and Carole and being homeless earlier in the year has taught me a lot about how the Jedi are selfless and only have concern for others. While the Sith rely on their passion to survive. In a world Of 5 billion Sith we do need more Jedi!
Im not going on about star wars again am I
:'(It makes me sad that Im a transexual as I want tobe a woman really bad!
I started thinking I was a girl at a young age. Actually I never thought about it until I got horny one day!
I shouldnt have anal sex should I?
I should get SRS before I have sex
Yes I am still a version I mean virgin!
I chased girls for years but they kept running away from me. Those that did like me I just couldnt do it with them. I thought I was saving myself for someone special. God this makes me feel sick and dizzy when I think of what Ive been through latelty. Dont take me seriously then I dont care!
Oh soorryyy!
Im an idiot!
I cant wait to transition and be myself
Your all so nice and I cant believe how intelligent some of you are.
If the psych ward was Jedi school then Susan's is Transgendered school!
And IM in year one!
Ive been on HRT for about ayear now and I like feeling happier since then!
Since my house was robbed by my Landlord 3 years ago Ive felt totally lost!
If it wasnt for Star wars and the wise teaching I would have died Im sure Of it!
cough! Cough woops
I think more than likely it has been the Trans porn industry that made me realise that I was Trans!
But Susans has shown me a more conservative viewpoint that admire very much!
This place has Respect and I love its Ideals and Support system!
Your all great and I want to be here forever.
I live In Tasmania its a beautiful Place and I think Its ok Transition here. But there is no way I could survive this place without Susans. Ive tried looking for other sites but there all pretty average compared to this place.
Anyway I will wait till I get a blog oneday soon
Im starting to crap on arnt I
Peace! Out! LoL
