Oh gosh, I was so nervous! "Was this what I wanted? I have lasted this long without transitioning, maybe I'm not sure. Is this really dysphoria?" Basically, I was doubting myself out of fear of what others would think. Then after starting HRT and getting some relief I realized how bad my dysphoria was. I never realize how extreme it was until some of it was alleviated. Needless to say, it was the best thing I ever did. Nervousness and anxiety is normal, this is a huge step and I am excited for you!