Today is a reminder of why I can't wait to finally be moving out this month and away from those who claim they love me but treat me horribly both mentally and sometimes physically (my brother sometimes hits me).
Back on last Friday my parents go out of town for an entire week to go to a funeral and visit family members. I am left alone with my brother, who still lives at home till he gets enough saved up to afford a place of his own. My brother has a tendency to order and boss me around when we're left alone which I try to overlook because I don't wanna cause trouble between us and my parents but if I fail to do something right my brother gets very belligerent with me and yells at me and he has hit me on occasions. Ok thankfully Friday went well but the next day on Saturday it's when it got bad and made me realize my parents can care less that my brother abuses me when left alone with him. He started to get belligerent because apparently I wasn't doing stuff right and I simply try walking away and suddenly he comes after hitting me with a belt. I decided enough was enough so I call the cops and before I know it my brother calls my mom up telling her what I did and after I get done she calls me up guilting me for calling the cops so I am suddenly forced to tell the officer once he arrived that I simply overreacted to an argument me and my brother had and that was that the officer leaves and I was left with the mercy of my brother for a week except at nights when he goes to work.
Fast forward to today this Friday. My parents get home from their trip and my dad cusses me out for what happened last Friday. I am the one made out to be the bad one in the situation doesn't matter that my brother got violent and actually hit me several times (i still have the bruises). So I realized something my parents don't give a crap of my well being at all they don't care at all. I told them time and time again how abusive my brother is everytime I get left alone with him and their response is for me to get over it.
Ok so what does this have to do with having a learning disability?? Well everything sorta. Like for example the constant yelling I deal with from my mom she is sorta like my brother when it comes to tasks and if I fail to do it right yeah she yells at me too (at least she doesn't hit me though). Those that haven't read my posts before I have a learning disability that affects my processing a bit like I require extra instruction when given tasks and instructions need to be clear and not vague otherwise I'll be lost and with my slow processing I tend to unintentionally do tasks slower than most which has made employment impossible and yes it affects how I also do tasks around the house which causes my family to get belligerent with me and yell at me a lot. My parents refuse to understand my learning disability, despite being officially diagnosed, and like most of society (in the U.S.) think it should've went away when I turned 18.
So yeah this is what I deal with on an almost daily basis and so glad I'm moving out this month.
