This month marks my one year tranniversary and it became a huge day of firsts for me...
Did go out in general public in a dress for the first time!
Got called Miss and Madam for the first time!
First time in a public Ladies room!
Left a bar and did get a "Good night Ladies"!
Got checked out on a traffic light by the guy in the car next to me!
(not today but earlier this week the first piece of mail arrived for Sarah)
While I have changed to mostly female cloth a while ago in pubic it has been mostly Jeans or cloth which could go both ways. Today I just jumped in with a nice colorful summer dress, sandals and everything. It was just such a relief finally just going out the way I want. I have done it in my back yard and in controlled environments but never in general public. So happy!
Besides that - it has been a wild ride for the past year. After some serious depression in 2016, I noticed that I start feeling better the second I wear female cloth. One thing lead to another, I ended up in this forum and and all the sudden knew what was wrong all these years. Came out to my wife a few days later.
Started Therapy in September and HRT in January.
HRT has so much changed my life, years of fog clogging my brain is gone, I am more attentive and finally have got my long lost energy and happiness back. Only days after starting, people noticed subtle changes and made comments about it.
What else has happened in a year?
I am out to some key customers I work with and to a good part of people at work. Some of the work systems already show my preferred name and I am starting to use Sarah as email signature. Got great responses the one time I had to ask for special treatment (no travel layovers in countries posing a danger) - was not a problem at all.
Things for my wife are still a bit hard, however she is trying so much to understand and is generally supportive. A nice girl sweater for christmas was one of the most important gifts she has ever given to me - outside of our daughter.
So far all reactions have been amazing. Even people where I was very scared to be rejected: Down to many hugs and tears. I know I still have a long road ahead. Family lives a few thousand miles away and I only see them every two year, so that is still ahead. And I am dreadfully aware that one day I will get a negative reaction.
Personality changes have been incredible. Down to the style and language I now use at work and in e-mails. Again something many people start noticing. I have so much focus again. All the new emotions. Never had that many tears in my eyes than in the past 8 weeks. Mostly cute things make me break out in tears (a coworker got some super nice congratulations for her 20 years of service with the company and I just broke down in tears reading the announcement... My daughter kissing me goodbye...)
Body starts changing, face and skin look different and I am finally filling an A Cup.
Very happy girl right now !
Still a very long road ahead. Hair needs to get longer and I finally need a long term solution for my facial hair. Need to come out to more people and finally starting to live 100% as myself. I will get there. I have taken a lot of steps slow so my wife can better adjust to the changes. Need to figure out name change (as dual citizen I have to change it in two countries) and need to start saving for surgery.
What is the plan for the next year? get rid of my facial hair, find a good voice trainer and hopefully be full time by the end of year 2.
