Amazing to dismal in one fell swoop

[Artesia]

Well, on Saturday, I had an amazing day.  I was accepted in a group as a woman, mind you we were all nerds, but a woman to them I was.  Only one person the entire day used the wrong pronouns, and only my friend of over 10 years messed up my name.

Then Sunday came, and I went a touch lighter on the eyeshadow as I felt I went to dark on Saturday.  Went shopping, and was either gendered correctly or not at all.  Until I hit Walmart.  I had to go to the restroom, and started to enter the woman's room, and one of the employees, said "Sir, Stop your going the wrong way!".  I turned around, said in my female voice I'm all woman, and I know I'm ugly. She said, okay, but didn't apologize and walked away.  The other women already in the bathroom didn't acknowledge me one way or the other.

That one instance made me feel horrible, and tarnished a beautiful weekend.  Why was that instance worse than the stray sir?

[Julia1996]

I'm so sorry that happened. People can be such total butt holes. I can see why that is worse than a stray Sir. By saying that to you she was actually saying " you can't go in there because you're not a woman" . Im sorry that happened. Believe me, I know its hard but try not to let the nastiness of that ignorant boob ruin the whole weekend.

Big hugs.

[Artesia]

Thank you Julia!  I'll try to let the good overpower that one bad.  I have a hard time doing that.

[Julia1996]

Thank you Julia!  I'll try to let the good overpower that one bad.  I have a hard time doing that.

I do too. It's a lot easier to say "don't let it bother you" than actually doing it. But if I hadn't learned to do that (begrudgingly)  I would be a shut in.

[Artesia]

For the most part, I am a shut in.  Nearly 40 years of hating oneself will do that.  I can count on one hand he amount of times that I willingly went out of my house, over those 40 years.  I went out several times, mostly because my parents, and sister, made me.  I didn't really date anyone until late junior or early senior year of high school.  I just played assorted games, and read books.

I am trying to learn all those social skills I never learned before.

I also find it hard to believe that you had a hard time learning to ignore the bad stuff.  Almost everything I've read from you is so up beat, and when it's not, it ends pleasantly due to your supporting friends and family. 

I'm glad to have your support.  It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

[Bari Jo]

I am trying to learn all those social skills I never learned before.

I'm right there with you Artesia.  I am somewhat social, only because I became good at faking it.  Now I'm relearning how to be social with hints of Bari Jo coming out.

I applaud you for going out dressed.  I haven't done that since high school.

I'm sorry you had a bad experience at he end.  Don't let that stop you though.  You will have more good ones too.

Bari Jo