I'm losing hope

[Amalina]

I can't take looking like this anymore. I took far too long to start my transition. I'm 38 and almost 2 and a half years on hrt and it's done almost nothing for me so far. I don't even get emotional anymore like I did the first year.

I just feel dead inside and I'm so afraid of being alone. I have someone great right now but it's a time limited deal. Who could want something like me. It doesn't matter what I wear or how much makeup I put on, people still misgender me constantly. Even other trans friends, the very few I know, misgender me although I know they do it on accident. I know what I look like so how can I get mad at them for messing up?

I don't know what to do anymore. I've lost any hope I had for transition. My endo won't change my hrt at all and doesn't seem to see any problem. Any advice, if possible, would be appreciated.

[MissKairi]

dont give up!

Why wouldnt someone want you? Because you are trans?

People are so much more accepting of ->-bleeped-<- these days so take that a step back

although I am not on HRT I can relate to what ypu are saying regarding about looks but unless we are super rich all we can do is make the best with what we have.

keep going, youvs come far, dont give up

[Amalina]

I wasn't saying they wouldn't want me for being trans. It was because of how I look. I know many gorgeous trans people. Sadly I'm not one of them.

Thanks for the reply. I'm just feeling really down about my looks and lack of progress with my transition. Hating myself for waiting as long as I did.

[MissKairi]

oh come dont be silly.
there are good looking men with average women ans vise versa

you say you are with someone. they wouldnt be if they didnt want to be

[Julia1996]

There are women here who started later than you, some in their 50s and 60s and that look good. Don't give up. We all have days when we feel ugly.
Hugs
Julia

[KellyBear]

Big big hugs to you Amalina. I too sometimes feel like my progress has slowed down tremendously, but then I just think I should wait a little longer something great will happen soon. Hang in there hun.  <3

[Dan]

Whoa! Don't lose hope!

Maybe what you need to do is seek some good fashion and makeup advice from trusted trans women who know how to dress well and use make up judiciously. It is really usually a matter of the right clothes, deportment and deft touch of cosmetics.

I look at the photos of older trans women on this site, and they all look so stylish and absolutely gorgeous, and not a few of them are well over 38.

Since you haven't shared any photos of yourself here, we can't really give any realistic feedback. But I'm sure things are not as bleak as you seem to think. 

[KellyBear]

Whoa! Don't lose hope!

Maybe what you need to do is seek some good fashion and makeup advice from trusted trans women who know how to dress well and use make up judiciously. It is really usually a matter of the right clothes, deportment and deft touch of cosmetics.

I look at the photos of older trans women on this site, and they all look so stylish and absolutely gorgeous, and not a few of them are well over 38.

Since you haven't shared any photos of yourself here, we can't really give any realistic feedback. But I'm sure things are not as bleak as you seem to think.

I totally agree with Dan. Well said.

Sometimes all it does take is the right clothing and make-up to change the negative ideas strolling around in ones mind.

Change is as good as a holiday and before you know it you will feel like a sexy vixen.

Hugs
Kelly .