Welcome!
I've dealt with all that confusion myself and know how it is, so just hit me up if you have any questions or want to talk.
Before I started seeing my therapist I thought I was just gender fluid in denial, because while there is absolutely nothing wrong with being gender fluid, it's far too much of an emotional label for me, and I also prefer some stability, as well as I cannot stand the thought of being both, personally, back and forth, as that is pretty much what I've done most of my life and it's very tedious.
Hope you get all of the support and resources you need here!