@#$#$^$& is about all I can about what has been going on in my life since just before Christmas and the month of January and the last ten days or so.
My dad had a major health scare, my brother and sister in law got all indignant, when almost a week later after Christmas they found out that my girlfriend and I had just hours before managed to get my dad into see a doctor where we live since the system was giving him the big run around near him and my mom. My brother and sister in law were like, why didn't you tell us you got dad an appointment. I literally said to them well we literally just set it up before you got here.
After taking care of my dad, and finding out that everything is more or less okay, and there is nothing to worry about, my girlfriend and I somehow got COVID. It honestly was not that bad, and from what I am hearing, this year's Flu is so much worse.
then January 20th happened, and the flurry of executive orders that were signed that day, and the others that came out on Friday and Monday, and now yesterday. Well, without sharing too much about myself, for real fear that this somehow gets out and is tied back to me, I work for the federal government, and have over 20 years of service to the nation. Many of these executive orders are tied directly to the work that I do in one way or another, and a lot of the others affect me, my job, my work, and myself personally. My family and my girlfriends family have not reached out to me directly, or at all to ask how I am doing. Though, only my girlfriend knows that I am on HRT. Unless they live under a rock, they should all know about all of these Executive Orders and should see how they all relate to me and my job and my future. I did speak to my sister about some of them Tuesday night when I got home from work, but she was not sympathetic at all. Instead she was telling me not to worry about it until I know more, and that some of the orders are not my responsibility, like the return to the office 5 days a week. I have never been required to work in the office 5 days a week since I joined the Civil Service. I certainly was not required to do so prior to the Covid-19 Pandemic or under Trump's first administration. In fact no one was complaining about federal government employees not being in the office 5 days a week then.
I'm terrified that I will be out of a job as my current position is tied directly to some of the first executive orders, and the latest one, "Ending Radical Indoctrination in K-12 Schooling" (
White House Presidential Actions, aka Executive Orders), is a clear threat to those of us who are Transgender. We were also hit with an
'offer' to resign, but were only given a few days to decide to pledge loyalty. It is not an offer, it a scare tactic.
There is no way in Hell that I will be accepting this
'offer'. But all of this has caused mass confusion, uncertainty, anxiety, fear among my colleagues across all levels of government.
But if there is an upside, as I talked to my therapist about this morning, it is that I feel more confident about my identity. As you may recall back in late 2023 or early 2024, I posted about how my GD offered and gave me their recommendation letter for Breast Augmentation. I didn't even bring it up, they did. I told my therapist this morning about it again, and how I feel more sure, though still very scared, about having it done. I have an appointment with my GD tomorrow morning, which I had originally schedule yesterday to talk about options and strategies for changing my diagnosis so that I do not loose my medical insurance coverage. So in addition to that, I will be talking to them about Augmentation and asking questions.
So, for those of you who have had breast Augmentation, or have thought about or looked into it, what questions should I be asking my GD tomorrow. I know that several of the major hospitals in the city provide this to transgender patients.
