Getting weepy

[KathyLauren]

A couple of weeks ago, my doctor increased my E dosage.  It wasn't a big change, just a 25% increase, but I think I am starting to feel the effects emotionally.  Lately, I have noticed that I get weepy at the slightest provocation.

When I read about someone's success story on these pages, or when I read about the latest injustice to trans folks in the news, I'll start to cry.

A couple of days ago, my wife and I had a mix-up where she got a ride with someone else and I was going to take our car and meet them.  Except she had my car key.  She doesn't carry a phone and I didn't have the friend's number, so I had no way to contact her.  I spent an hour and a half by myself in town before we got it all sorted out, knowing that I was standing up another friend and unable to do anything about it.  In the past, I would have been angry or at least grumpy.  This time, all I wanted to do was cry.

It feels so good to be able to feel!

[Sarah.VanDistel]

A couple of weeks ago, my doctor increased my E dosage.  It wasn't a big change, just a 25% increase, but I think I am starting to feel the effects emotionally.  Lately, I have noticed that I get weepy at the slightest provocation.

When I read about someone's success story on these pages, or when I read about the latest injustice to trans folks in the news, I'll start to cry.

A couple of days ago, my wife and I had a mix-up where she got a ride with someone else and I was going to take our car and meet them.  Except she had my car key.  She doesn't carry a phone and I didn't have the friend's number, so I had no way to contact her.  I spent an hour and a half by myself in town before we got it all sorted out, knowing that I was standing up another friend and unable to do anything about it.  In the past, I would have been angry or at least grumpy.  This time, all I wanted to do was cry.

It feels so good to be able to feel!

Kathy, I totally get it. I think of myself as someone relatively cold headed. Don't get me wrong: I've always had a very rich inner life, but I had no trouble hiding it behind a mask of manliness. Well, not anymore... Whenever I think about some sad thing of if I am super happy, I can't stop the tears from popping into my eyew. Like you, I love it.
Hugs, Sarah

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[LizK]

I think it one of the things I appreciate the most is to be able to now have that emotional release...feel better and get on with my day!!

[Laurie]

 Hi Kathy,

  I also understand just what you are talking about, and I too think it has increased since a dosage increase. I was watching an old TV series "Highway to Heaven" which is known for it's tear jerking but happy endings prior to beginning HRT. I have always been an "Old Softy" having to surreptitiously wipe away the tears before someone noticed them. Well that's the way it was  watching these episodes. Then I started HRT and after a little while taking my pills I found I could not stop the tears from openly running down my face at the ends of these shows,
  It's gotten worse. Two months ago my doctor doubled the estradiol and I found myself tearing up frequently on my road trip just thinking about what I've done in this last month. Thinking about all the ladies I was able to meet in person, their stories, their hospitality and generosity and hospitality, the positive changes in learning to live as myself, and the support I have gotten from everyone online that rode on my shoulders and live the trip with me. During the last stretch home I opening cried in my truck several times as I thought of how wonderful  this trip was.
  Now that I'm home and can catch up on this forum I find myself tearing up  reading posts from others and when I write comments relating my own experiences on the topics I respond to.  It's not a choice, these strong emotional outbreaks are real and uncontrollable. They are part of being a woman.

Hugs,
   Laurie

[sarah1972]

Same here. It took about 4 month and a dosage increase to get to that point.

Now it can be anything: something cute my 16 month old does, a nice email and especially situations I would have been very emotional in the past.

And yes, it feels o good to finally feel. It is also a good reminder how far I have come and what the wrong hormones did to me in the past...

It feels so good to be able to feel!

[KathyLauren]

I got to try out the waterworks for real this evening.  Just learned that a friend in real life is detransitioning due to family and employment reasons.  I understand why (too long to explain here), but damn, it's sad.  And yeah, the tears work really well.   

[stephaniec]

I cry all tht time

[noleen111]

The joys of female hormones...

I cry much more easily than I did before HRT.

[SophiaBleu]

Yeah, I tear up at the drop of a hat now. Full-on water works too, in certain situations.

[RobynD]

I get weepy all the time.

[Dani2118]

I've always been weepy, now I don't have to hide it!!!

[Anne Blake]

Kathy, I and so many others here know of what you speak. Most of my friends have gotten used to tears streaming from my eyes and the occasional sob in the middle of conversations. No one has commented on it other than my partner joking, "there she goes again" from time to time.

I guess the real question is how do you feel about it? You mentioned, "that it is good to be able to feel", but does it feel good with the public displays of emotions? Personally I love the being able to feel and I also love a good cry amongst friends (TSA doesn't handle it all that well). - Anne

[KathyLauren]

I guess the real question is how do you feel about it? You mentioned, "that it is good to be able to feel", but does it feel good with the public displays of emotions?

I'm a bit self-conscious about it still, but less so every day.  I am more and more getting into the mindset that, dammit, I have the right to be me.  No apologies. 

[Anne Blake]

Now you are talkin sister, Ain't it great!

[Rachel]

I keep tissues either in my purse or on my person. You never  know when you need to soak up the tears.

Things have been a bit overwhelming the past 3 days and I find myself crying several times a day. I spoke with my therapist today and in an hour every time I bring up several subjects I cry.

[LizK]

I'm a bit self-conscious about it still, but less so every day.  I am more and more getting into the mindset that, dammit, I have the right to be me.  No apologies.

ABSOLUTELY!  as my signature says.....You have the right live an authentic life!! No one has the right to take that from you.